Friday, December 31, 2010
Happy New Years Eve!!!
Tuesday, December 28, 2010
Until we meet again......
William asked me to stay.. hahahahhaha yes, he did, i wasnt close with him at all, because everytime i had to work, and i dont have that chance to talk to him much. so when on the 26th, we went to Genting, we talked a lot, and played a lot together, like riding the solero shot with him. tell him jokes, it made us a lot closer, so at night when we were having dinner, they were planning to watch movie that night, and i said i had to go camp, and he was like, dont go....
and i said, but i already took 2 days leave, what am i gonna do these 2 days?! he said. stay.... then as a big cousin sister. sure lembut hati right? maybe when you first met him you dont think he is cute, but after talking to him long enough and looking at the expressions that he made, he's really adorable. hahahahahaha. i know its bad coming out from me but, i do feel very happy about not going to girls camp.
because when SH called me whether am i going a not, i said no, and she said im going to miss a lot of fun, maybe i have. but family is always more important. i am glad i stayed at home, and i havent seen this cousin since he was a baby! so i think it would be 12 years. i wont know when is he coming back to visit again. so its worth everything =) now he's leaving soon, im so gonna miss him.
when he first came, he was sooooooooooooooo shy! he wouldnt even talked or look at us. i at first thought since he is the only child, he must be difficult to blend in with us. but then no, and he wants a sibling that he could play with too. so i do really treat him as my little brother.
Until we meet again =) hopefully you will come back soon. =)
Thursday, December 23, 2010
Mylo & William
then my granma asked William, UK better or here better? He said. Here better. hahahahaha...
well glad that he likes it here, then my aunty said, then your summer break, you come back here yourself can a not? then he said.Sure. hahahahahah! he's really cute.
well, the next time he comes back, i hope i can spend more time with him too, since now im working and Christmas is coming im pretty buzy. hahaha.
Wednesday, December 22, 2010
Weight Gained
my mom brings them for good food, my popo cooks them good food. almost everyday, and we will go shopping frequently. how not to gain? they will always leave a lot for me since im not eating dinner with them coz im working.
i need to cut down now... drink lots and lots of tea... go jogging on sunday~! i love exercise. i hate sports. not to say completely hate la. but i prefer exercise more. tea really helps you to loose weight, do u know? hahaha coz it gets rid of the fat in ur body. especially chinese tea. have u ever went out and eat, and then when u drink chinese tea, u can see a layer of oil on top because of your oily mouth? hahahahaha.
well, the feeling of the role of a deputy? too soon to tell, but i can feel the stress already. im very much happy with my new group, new start, new challenge, new lessons, new experiances, some new people =)
my first - arranging transport
i know its a headache, but i've never experiance last minute transport arrangement. which is a good experiance for me though. i will know how to handle next time.
my hope for next year? though i dont really like people looking up to me, because i feel i am not a good example, and there's nothing much to look up to me as well. but i wouldnt know would i? so my every move is being watch without me noticing, i will try to be a good deputy, a good example for girls too.
i have bad habits, which is really serious ones. which i MUST change. and yes, i do feel being bullied by other ppl as well, and to tell u all the truth. im not a confident person, though i may seem like it. even if my group is destined to be small, i hope that my group has strong unity like a very big family. and make everyone cry when the group's time to end... kekekek. (havent start then plan for ending?!) and to my members will be a lot more mature spiritually. yes, this is my hope now. ^^
how can you serve God's people, if you do not love them?
i love every single one of my Timothians.
Muacks!
Wednesday, December 15, 2010
1 and a Half Hour
but then i didnt expect that i would go to bed at 530am. and guess what? i have to wake up at about 7am. so yea... i look like a zombie right now, and im too tired to make up... i dont care anymore! LOL.
my mind is blank right now....
Oh Lord, pls help me focus at tonight's Meeting.
Amen.
Monday, December 13, 2010
A New Start.
but what to do? some things cant be changed and i wont have a choice too. as what everyone told me. i have to really focus this year. =( and im also planning to go back to study this year. yipee? hahahha. Immiscible practice tonight and tomorrow. i haven't even memorize my lines and 17th we're off to Termeloh... stress-nyer. yes, though i dont have much lines, but this is the most lines i've ever had and im not always involved in M.A.D sketches... only back ground people who says stuff like... AHH! OHH! AWW~ Yes! Kill him! something like that. hahahahah!
and as you guys already noticed, i have new songs in my list now. and 2 Chinese songs. shocked?! ahahaha yes. i do listen to them, but just seldom. this one i heard from the OST of Down With Love. i've finished this Drama quite long now. kekekekke. hunting for a new one. i wanna watch korean drama this time. but TV already showing. good at least. after work came back from home i normally after dinner i will just go up to my room and blow the radio up until i fall asleep, i dont really spend time with my popo watching TV or anything. but this time since got Korean Drama i will stay until the drama ends =)
laugh together, cry together, hahaha. i miss those times =) my family very emotional wan. the most emotional is me. yes.. very very little things can just make me cry. when im too angry, i cry. im too touched or happy, i cry. but after crying i feel a lot better and sleepy too. hahahaha. im serious. ok. though im not a fan of S.H.E i quite like this song. ^^
alright. Enjoy your Holidays for SPM students that have completed your exams ^^
Saturday, December 4, 2010
Pancakes Picture.
she's really pretty isnt she? kakaka. but i have never seen her now... probably someone took her in. its a good thing though. at least she is taken care of. good night everyone.
my relatives from London came back tonight, had a superb dinner. and my little cousin is really shy. hahaha. he's cute. nites. will update more.
Friday, December 3, 2010
Full Breakfast.
because now my mom has done an eye operation, so she can't fetch me to work anymore. so i have been fetched by my uncle for about 2 weeks now. going to be 3 weeks. so today he asked,
Uncle: eaten your breakfast yet?
Me: no... not yet. (i normally dont eat also wan..)
Uncle: wanna go for breakfast?
Me: (check time) Okie...
and this particular relative of mine is a Vegetarian. i mean a very extreme vegetarian, they dont even eat garlic or onions. because in cantonese it has a "head" word. =.=..... i personally feel its quite lame.. hahahahha
so.... even though he doesnt mind me eating meat in front of him, i myself will also feel very uncomfortable ma. if its my cousin different story la. since we are all so close dy.... but this is my uncle. hahaha. i can't say we're really close, but he treats me really good too ^^ and one thing really scary about my uncle is... he does not like people wasting food. so everytime when we go out dinner with them, he will bloat up all the younger ones which is my cousins and i la...
so, we went to this hawker stall. with lots of food, so i just follow him eat vegetarian la. and the lady gave A LOT... i was looking at my plate... so keep eating and eating, after half plate i've already felt really full. and my uncle eats really fast. so i dont want him to wait so long so i also quickly eat. and after my plate of noodles. i have to finish my drink. im like eating for a competition... LOL.
i do really feel like i wanna puke... so i forced myself to burp... at least i will feel better after burping a few times. now i understand why babies must burp after drinking milk. but a full breakfast is also good. i now cannot eat lunch anymore.. hahahahha! save money
oh, and speaking of money, im totally out of cash now. now that i simply spend. but my probation has already over for 2 months, so my salary is suppose to be what we've agreed in our agreement letter. but then for this month i've check. my salary is Rm 600 less. i am so pissed off. and her dad wants me to work on this Sat and Sun... Sunday i have to go church. Saturday is like the last group meeting for our group. and plus, Sunday after class we have "immiscible" practice. and as for Saturday even if i told my boss, its my group's last meeting you'd thing he care? he will surely as me to work half day..
and its not like i have something important to attend. (to him) and i cant say i have a wedding to attend to.. coz tecnically, im not invited.. i mean for the evening. then i start to think, they need help to jaga office also, and my boss treats me really good also. the one who asked me to work is her dad. and her dad is actually the one who give me my salary. and for the whole night till today my mood isnt so good because of this too. so i've told him i cannot work... and my reasons, then im kindda worried about the office matter now. yes, though its non of my business. but im still working there and she's still my boss. our friendship is also quite good now. Oh my goodness what will i do?! Oh God pls give me something really important... maybe i met an accident and now im in a hospital with a broken leg... OR! my gastric came back and cannot work... wahhahahahhaha... touch wood....
HOW?!!!!!!
Tuesday, November 30, 2010
Pancakes
dont ask why... i also dont know why. it just sounds so cute for her. she IS very very cute. i took a picture of her, but sadly my office has no memory card reader so i think you guys will have to wait until i get home. which is gonna be quite late today and tomorrow. hahahahah! i hope any of you guys who CAN adopt her. pls let me know. though my sis and my mom does have the intention of taking her in. but then its not our house. so my granma IS the boss.
well. "Immiscible" practice has started, super excited! which is tommorow! and we're going Temerloh again! yay! i like to travel from church to church and perform makes it more "BIG" though it is a long journey. but if the sketch does save a lot of souls. i guess... no matter how far you go, it is always worth it. even for 1 soul.
so yea. anyone who CAN adopt dear pancakes pls let me know yea? oh. her tail has been chopped off. so she has a very very short tail which is super cute when she wags her tail. hahahaha. will post the picture. later.
Thursday, November 25, 2010
Big Head Prawn + Idiot
hahah i just got a very funny phone call from Telecom,i'll tell you now before i forget. this is a Guy, with a very "gay" voice.
*ring ring*
Me: Hello, Good Morning, Newsound Hearing, Im Samantha, Can i help you?
Guy: yes, hello Good morning.
Me: Good Morning.
Guy: yea im calling from Telecom M'sia. i need to speak to the person in charge to settle some bills. yea.
Me: oh, that would be miss Jenny. but she's not in right now, maybe i can give you her handphone number?
Guy: oh ok ok. yes, wair a minute yah...
Me: *phone number* tuut tuut tuut
Guy: ohok.. so ah.. ok.. erm.. ok ok ok. so what is the position on miss Jenny?
Me: oh, she's my boss.
Guy: oh.. ok ok.. oh.. so... ok ok ok.. i'll call her then. thank you.
Me: you're welcome.. thank you.
HAHAHAHHA Funny right? this guys can stop saying ok ok ok ok.. + his voice is really funny...
anyways back to my topic of today.
If you have observed well or even NOTICED that i did not online for the day yesterday. is because i wasnt working yesterday? why? hahahaha. you're really gonna laugh and scold me FAN SHU!!!
i THOUGHT i forgot to bring my office key. so there i am, 9am reached my office and i was looking for my key, at the usual places that i would put in, but..... i couldnt find it ANYWHERE.. so i called my mom, my mom said at home dont have. then i decided to call my boss. then since she is buzy yesterday so asked me to take leave. YAY! then when i was in the food court area. waiting for my sis to pick me home. so i keep looking through my bag over and over again. and then.... in my make-up section. there it was. the key to my office. i was like =.= so there you are. but, i've already took the leave. so... just forget it la. tmr only work. fan shu right? :P
then it took like 2 hours for them to come, and i was thinking why so long? then when my mom finally called. my aunt and youngest cousin was also there. then i understand why they took so long.. haih. i thought i could go home =( so... we of course went gai gai and show them around.. bring them to the entrance to see the Christmas Deco. then i watch HP7 again! LOL. well. i dont really mind watching it again coz its really nice. hahaha. at least to me. oh yeah. we ate the pancake international SEDAP! its not really expensive either. you guys should really come and try.
then bring them for snowflakes. then went home at 6pm. reach home and 7 something. then. my granma didnt cook. so went out for dinner. my favorite! STEAM FISH. of coz, i offered to pay for the meal. since im now working. so why not treat my family for a nice dinner? hahahaha. so yea, that for my day yesterday,overall? me likey.... but now? back to work. hahahaha
Tuesday, November 23, 2010
Pavilion, Nando's and Her.
i forgot when. leechoo came pavilion to find me. hahaha. so yea, we had lunch and camwhore with the Christmas Decorations in Pavilion. so without further of delay. i will show you the pictures.
Her and her Hot Peri-Peri
Me and My Mild Peri-Peri
Our Bottomless Ice Lemon Tea ^^
Yupi Yipee^^
Purty Deco...
Purty Lights
Purty Apple.
Snow in the all year summer country =.=
Purty Angel with the Pavilion Tag.
Me and Her under the purty Lights
Christmas Balls. hahahah sounded so wrong.
under Big Big Christmas Tree.
Samantha in Christmasland. LOL!
"Inside" the Christmas Ball.
>.<
Enjoy... and Early Merry Christmas everyone ^^ though i know most of you are having your SPM, Good Luck and remember to pray every paper you sit in, pray for guidance and Wisdom in Answering all your SPM quesiton. Hope that these Christmas pictures will cheer you guys up and give you a warm feeling inside your heart ^^and remember to Thank God in the end in whatever results you have yea? Good Luck.
Friday, November 19, 2010
Mommy!!!!
yes, this is a very embarassing fact about me. hahahah One day. i was on my way to the APT class. so, i've been attending this class for like a month every 3 times in a week. so one day, i bought the ticket. after slotting the ticket in the machine and going through it. i start to think.. which platform should i go? A.... or B? reminder. i always go using monorail. never by bus or anything ok? so i can even forget... yes i know im an idiot. after i had to ask a nice pak cik for direction, the pak cik asked.
PC: oh, you're not from here?
Me: erm.. i AM from here...
PC: oh.. you dont look chinese...
Me: oh really? hahahahah! i am chinese....
PC: oh... are u mix?
Me: No... im pure chinese.
PC: oh...
Me: heheheh.. urm... thank you so much yea...
PC: oh.. you're welcome.
so well basically that pakcik did not really believe when i say i am a true Malaysian. but me looking like a mix? its not the first time others ask me this question. hahahahha geng right? like my mom, a lot of people thought she was a Japanese when she was like about my age when she was working in Genting. one of the hotels. some say i look like a Philippine. but a really cute one. AHAHAHA.
right when i was about to go take a undang test. we had to travel to that place by van with a bunch of strangers right? so i was the first person for the guy to pick me up, and he IS quite Handsome, and he looked like a Malay. but he is also Chinese. so when i go into the car, this guy was trying to make a conversation.
Dude: where are you from?
Me: erm... Malaysia...
Dude: Oh! u're a mix?
Me: No... im pure chinese...
Dude: oh.. u look mix to me.... you know how to speak cantonese?
Me: ngo sik gong...
Dude: oh...
Me: what mix to i look like?
Dude: erm.. a bit like a chinese mix philippine.
Me: oh.. you look like a malay to me.
Dude: oh. hahah i get that a lot. im also a pure chinese...
hey.. wait.. im out of my topic today. right. back! especially when i am sick. though its just cough and flu.. i will ask my mom to bring medicine for me. even when i know where is it.. aiyo.. manja mar... hahahaha. then dont you underestimate my mom okie. she looks fierce. but she is really crazy and hamsap.
i will not reveal her hamsap-ness. but i will reveal her craziness. as most of u know, i sleep with her. so at times we talk a lot until i fall asleep and then she cannot sleep anymore. LOL past bedtime.. kekekekekeke.. especially when i went through the depressed break up with Soo Jen Ruw. she was there for me when i finally cannot take any of it. and i've always acted tough in front of everybody. even her. and she cried with me. coz she cannot bear to see her daughter so sad. yes.. this is the loving side of hers.. LOL.
the crazy side? u know, there's a period of time when we always pillow fight during bed time. and i have proof. ask my sis. do you hear miserable screams from your sis and evil laughter from your mom inside their room? LOL. like almost everynight? LOL she kicks me off the bed and touch places where there's not meant for touching for fun. LOL. and its all my MOM's doing. LOL. of coz i dont dare to kick her back la. since even though my mom's condition is getting better. but i still dun dare to be too rough with her. so poor me. have to be bullied by her. Opps.. i think i've revealed her hamsapness. well.. nevermind la.. both also female mar.. hor? LOL. and other things i dont wish to say.
and she is like the coolest mom / aunt you can ever have. she brings me and my cousins out to play very often at times. ^^ thats why me and my cousins are so so close. they come almost once every week! and i love her very very much. she really changed a lot before she has this sickness. i started to Thank God for putting my family in this kind of situation. most people will see like.. awww... so cham. but in this process. we've gotten really close to each other. closer than any other families. and thats the most important thing. whats the point to have a family when you cant even have good fun with each other? wouldnt that be boring? my family is broken. but its very unique!
My MOM IS AWESOME!!!!!!
Friday, November 12, 2010
Christmas Deco
this year's deco make me feel like fairytale wedding except more christmas feel. and its red and gold in colour. while outside deco makes me feel "im dreaming of a white Christmas~" hahahahaha. yups, especially i am always cold inside pavilion so when i come out of the building, it seems no different. im still very cold, its like a snowy whether but minus the snow. LOL. i have no idea what im talking about.
Monday, November 8, 2010
Back from Family Camp!
after camp my family and i went to Brem mall for movie. You again.

Overall? i like this movie. hahaha its really funny. and touching as well. Betty White is the granma in the middle. she's a really famous comedian. i really like her a lot. i will be watching out for her movies ^^
Tuesday, November 2, 2010
Emotion drives me crazy & Stubborness
and other than that i am very stubborn. i dont take advice from ppl i am not close with, people who doesnt even bother to clique with me. i only take advice from ppl who i respect, people who have really close connection with me. this is bad i know. coz both my parents are stubborn people. so dont blame me. =p and people i dont respect. then really too bad la for the person.
which this links me to emotion drives me crazy. whom i asked? hahahha it is Ee may~~! *wave* she said: when i dont like a person. whatever a person does. i also "mm sun ngan" which is really true. even if its a good thing. i dont have problem working with people, but that i have a problem working with people i dont like.
which means yes. i have to change. but its really hard after all these years. i AM like that. and of course i cannot EXPECT people accept me as i am. because, even though people are willing to. it is a bad thing for me also. and it is not helping me in anyway. in fact this will only destroy me. i am not a very forgiving person. i choose who i want to forgive. that makes me think, if i am God. then everyone else would be dead. so why bother creating them. hahahhahaha! anyways. i will try to bear in mind on these 2 weaknesses and try to change them. i may not succeed
If it turns out that my best isn't good enough, at least i won't look back and say i was afraid to try; failure makes me work harder. which means. i will keep trying and trying until i succeed. i of coz not gonna do this alone, in fact everything i did and do. im always not alone. because God is with me every second of the way.
Your strength is made perfect when I am weak.
Family Camp
anyways... im super excited about family camp~! i miss the swimming together and the going to the sauna together. hahahaha. after working for so long i finally get to have a REAL holiday. though compared to others my work is super easy. im like makan-ing Gaji buta everyday. but it is freezing EVERYDAY.. and yesterday i got a slight fever. and now my complexion really dried off. i really need sauna now. hahahahaha. and the most importantly chit chatting in a room together with your friends! yay! and my mom borrowed 2 taekwondo outfits from my cousins. which is super big. hahahaha. so i guess now i have a costume to wear after all. haha.
well, on Christmas, my aunty and uncle and cousin from UK is coming back. so im not even a little excited about it. coz the house is gonna be really crowded. and its gonna be a lot a lot of arguements. haih. yup. this is the kind of environment i lived in before they go UK. which is like 100 years ago. HAHAHHA. and i am not thrill about them coming back at all. but hey, at least they are coming back to see my granma.
oh, and just now. a guy came in the shop and said. photocopy. i said no. then he said photocopy. i said no photocopy. then he said. tolong la. then i just look at him and said. this is not a photocopy machine. its a printer. then he was like not beliving me and thought there would be like other photocopy machine in one of the rooms. so i straight away kicked him out. i mean, does he even know what a photocopy machine looked like? at least it does have a cover to open and close. but this is obviously a printer. goodness. and i dont think my boss would let any strangers come and use office things right? like paper doesnt need money meh.
alright. out of things to say now. bye.
Wednesday, October 27, 2010
New Link and Song
so when you're in office or at home in school hols. u can download and play. good right?! hahah no need to thank me. =p
and, i've uploaded 1 Song. yes only one. i really love this song. if i ever get another chance in singing in a Wedding again, i'll definately pick this song. but no partner =( aww... hhahahahahahaa. or maybe i'll want this song for my wedding, if i ever get married lar. hahahah!
hmm.. i wonder who's my best friend in the future?~~
Friday, October 22, 2010
Accident
Me: ma... why no blood wan... no blood why die wan?
Mom: Sometimes die dont need blood wan...
Me: har?
Mom: Internal Bleeding lar....
Me: oh....
Yes... im stupid i know. anyways....
Mom: Sure this fella wanna cross road dont use the bridge....
Me: then the driver go to jail ah?
Mom: no la, is the fella salah ma... who ask him dont use bridge...
Me: Oh...
Mom: but then the driver sure also wont feel good for the rest of his life la... coz killed someone ma.
Me: i thought u said its not his fault?!
Mom: ya la. but knocked a person dead with your car you sure wont feel good wan ma...
Me: dunno oh.. i dunno how to drive... and i dont have a car...
Mom: *stare*...
Me: hehehehehehehehehehehhehehehehehe~!
Mom: sei lui pao... lei hou chung yi gek sei mami hai mai?!
then this topic ends here... after it ended, it caught me thinking, what if, that driver is a Christian leh? how ah? then bible say do not murder. but is this considered murder? and no matter how is also the driver that "killed" the person ma...
so did he sin? i have no answers to these questions.... but however, drive carefully people. and dont speed. you wont know what will suddenly appear in front of you. better Late than Never.
Tuesday, October 19, 2010
I think
I think that Justin Bieber's voice is a lot more mature than last time compared to "One Time" LOL
I think that Taylor Swift is GORGEOUS.
I think that Taylor Lautner is handsome.
I think that Christ Daughty and David Cook is AWESOME!
these are currently on my mind. hahaha.
Nightmare
how many children had dreamt their parents died?
and after that dream, did they do something to cherish their parents more?
i know i did. i dreamt my mom died and i woke up crying. and i continued to cry silently coz im sleeping with my mom and i dun wanna wake her la. after that i cuddle with her. and try to sleep as close to her as possible. i even imagine that actually she died in her sleep. so the whole night i just keep looking at her until i fall asleep. i know. silly me. but it could have happen right?
Monday, October 18, 2010
2 People that caught my Attention
1. Woman
- she is very fat. its not her size that caught my attention, but her action. ok la, she came in the door, and she just stand there and having no intention to moving to the side for others convenience to come in. you see, everyone is made in different colours and sizes ma. its ok that you are fat. but its not ok when you are fat and you block ppl's way. which is very rude. let me tell you how fat she is. have you seen the cartoon, Monster House? the old man's wife? thats how fat she is. if you hadnt, go youtube and watch the cartoon.
2. Guy
- he is tall. and fat. not VERY fat la. but fat la. okie. not his size also. its the way he dresses and his hair. his hair is "Gam mou" lala jai la. hahaha. and curly. not natural curls yea. is perming punya curl and its like those aunty or granma style wan. small curls. and then the longer hair from the bottom is straight. maybe like neck length la.
- his dressing, a low V-shape black top.
- samurai-like grey pants, his pants is not long yea. its until his calf
- flip flops.
- and a grey cardigan, remember on esther's wedding, i wore a white long cardigan? and my sleeves can be button up? exactly that top, but shorter and grey in colour.
- and he holds a handbag. i didnt see the colour i was too focused on his attire. hahahaha.
- but, monorail could really give a lot of surprises. HAH!
Friday, October 15, 2010
Letter
But. Life feels really awesome when you feel joyful, happiness, Touched, and most importantly Loved.
These few days, i think its safe to say i've been really emo. dont feel like updating. dont feel like talking also. dont really feel like eating, i felt really guilty when every time i come home from work, my grandma would cook my favorite dish. but i dont wanna eat. and i cant force myself to eat.
lunch? you guys saw my status of "what should i eat for lunch right?" mainly because i dont feel like eating. last Sunday. i was suppose to receive a letter. then last 2 weeks, i've been thinking a lot of what is the content of the letter. and afraid of what it would say inside to hurt me, or it will make me happy? or angry? i am so afraid to receive the letter, but yet curious and excited. i know i sound mixed up. to be frank, the letter is from Jen Ruw.
Last 2 Weeks of the Sunday, Aunty came up to me and said. on Saturday, when she was cleaning up his room, she found a letter. and its for me. immediately i was so shocked. i was thinking. why me? and till now i was also thinking did aunty approached the wrong person and the letter wasnt for me after all? then i would be really disappointed. so till now i try not to keep my hopes high and try not to be so sure that the letter is for me, until aunty pass it to me, but she forgot to bring it last Sunday. so i guess thats okie. i think God knows im not ready. coz i was quite down for the whole week. somehow i feel quite relief when aunty said "sorry, i forgot to bring." and also a bit of disappointment.
Why do i feel so mixed up is because Aunty said: "i think he knows that he'll be on his way. thats why he wrote a letter for you. you know what i mean?" when she was talking to me, she herself is trying so hard not to shed a single tear. but her eyes were already wet. looking at her. makes me feel really heartbroken. i know i had to stay strong. because if i were to cry along with her. she'd feel a 1000 times more terrible than me. and however forced myself a smile. but how can i stay happy right? i tried really hard not to cry but i failed. i had to run upstairs to cry. i actually dont know why i cried, and couldn't find a reason why. even until now. can anybody tell me why?
you guys may see that im happy like. ALL the time. somehow i cannot show my real feelings in front of others. well. at least to ppl i cared for. because i dont want them to worry. and also until now, my mom would sometimes talk about him. to be frank again, i am not okie with it. im not comfortable with it. its not that i haven't moved on. not that i ha vent accept the fact. i have and had. i just dunno what kind of feeling is this. maybe i wouldn't know at all.
and because of this matter. it almost make me explode! my mood is getting worst by the day, im so anxious till i can really shout my lungs out from a mountain top. i really wanna shout till my voice burst. and till i have no energy to shout anymore and no more voice to shout out. but.... selayang where got mountain right? hahaha... i really have no where to turn to... but my beloved blog.
I LOVE YOU MY CASSIOPEIA. hahahaha.... well. letting everything out to you i feel so much better, hahaha muacks! Oh! why i name my Blog Cassiopeia?
its all because of last time i liked TVXQ right? and they call their fans Cassiopeia. and Cassiopeia is originally a few stars linked together. have you ever tried looking up and see the stars when you're feeling down? i used to do that when i was young. because of the cozy feeling when the night wind gives, and when u just tilt your head up a bit to see the stars. you'll feel really comfortable and all my negative feelings just disappeared. and my eyes would really just focus on the big black patch of thing that are filled with diamonds. they looked so beautiful. thus. after my likings to TVXQ disappeared i start to like this name for my blog. because when i let out everything. i will feel comfortable.
but now. i dont do this so often anymore. because after working, i feel quite tired. bath and go to sleep. and another thing is. stars rarely come out so often like they used to already. or maybe because i didnt noticed? i remembered in Cheras at night there would be A LOT of stars. but now. you can only see 1 or 3 of it. haih... why are you all hiding? Alright. i have to wait for Sin Huey, Mun Teng and Lee Choo to come meet me for dinner =) later we're going to church!
Friday, October 8, 2010
Food Review
there's a Satay Bar. in the food court. well, of coz its expensive lor, then the potion they give is also better than those selling from outside. taste: its really nice. not bad la, and most of the satay has one chunk of fat one right? they dont have that. all pure meat. except for lamb la. lamb is a sure have wan.
then there's Hot and Roll. its actually crepe la. for all of you whodont know what it is, its a very very thin layer of biscuit. and you can put all kinds of Jam in it, there's butter, chocolate, peanut, strawberry, orange marmalade, grape and others la, so pavilion dun have these "cheap" stuff, their flavors are all unique? hahahah but really not bad la, very big also. heheheh
then there's Chewy Jr. its cream puff i think, but the "bread" is chewy. i like the bread. hahahhaha. thats really nice also.
there's a new opened Just Heavenly. its a cake shop, they just opened today. i havent got to see yet. will go later, and beside it its also another new opened shop called Sausages and Stuff. will try when i have the chance too. heheh but today. sadly not free.
Wednesday, October 6, 2010
Bye bye.. Liew San Liang

Woi... you wanna leave to UK dy... haih. dunno why become so emo dy. oh i think i know why dy.. Cyrus Liew la... his virus spread to me dy... yea, though im not blood- related to you, but at least i grow up with you =) and last time 1 week, at least can see you quite a lot of times because of our parents. then slowly became 2 times a week. then now, 1 year after only get to see you. Knowing you for so so long, you are already like my "brother"
Pui mun and i wont have Pui Liang for a year. HOW?! Why you bring her to UK also?! HAHA!
i will really miss you a lot a lot lor. again, must take really good care of yourself oh, dont eat so much fast food, erm.... coz more or less also will be a bit unhealthy. and must always sign in to MSN oh. and dont always eat maggie or any kind of instant noodle there, more unhealthy. hahaha. Oh yea. Most importantly must study really hard yea.. and dont forget that God is always by your side.
hahahhaha u leaving make me remember most of our past times together as kids and i used to call you "San Liang" that time. im very bad with good byes. though im pretty sure you dont read my blog. but i'll make sure you read this post. so i also dunno what to say. i really never thought i will be sad when you leave lor, not until now la.
so Bye bye San Liang gogo. HAHA
Till then =)




i will go look for more pictures of us to post yea... hahaha
Carls Jr.
well, of coz i am impress with their portion compared to Burger King & McD give la. so i was eating happily. after a while. it gets pretty 'zai' and it turns out to be a waste of money. the only thing i manage to finish is the drink.
the burger i eat until 4-5 bites left, i cannot eat anymore. the fries? well.. i only managed to eat a few. so maybe for me. its too much, and becomes a waste of money. but its really nice though, i'll only buy when i have a really big appetite one day. hahahha...
Monday, October 4, 2010
New Songs
- Just the way you are.
- Just the way you are - bruno mars
- Miracle's happen - myra
- Bubble Gum Song
- Nobody.
Yup these are it, im thinking what more to add.. hmm...
Friday, October 1, 2010
"You're such a softy"
But then, most of the people who are my friends are all MAJORITY the ones that hurts me, not like accidentally hurt. i mean purposely hurt you. which they know its wrong and it hurts. but they just like to do it. why would i suddenly bring this up? well, i was chatting with this old classmate in school. and my secondary classmates may not be well educated, may not be a Christian, but they are the ones that really are my true friends, coz they dont hurt me at all. in fact, they stand up for me before when i was bullied by seniors.
my friend and i was talking about our life lately, what are we doing, and our problems. then i said just the same old me, i never changed a bit. and my friend say i did. im always to them a cheerful girl. im serious, there was never a day that you would see me mad, or sad, or anything la. im always smiling. well.. at that time la. then he said i dont anymore. so i just told him life has been really tough. and unfair. and how i wish i was last time when nothing is bothering me. well, he asked me, is there any bullies LOL! well i said yes, then the more i talk about the more i got sad, then we changed topic.
well, as for most of you who hadn't been bullied by anyone, take it from someone who had for her whole life. to be continued... going home now ;)
Im back. hahha, ok, when i was young im being bullied by any people, my childhood friends, my sis, my Kaiyea, then primary, i have only 1-2 friends coz Malays, Indians, and Chinese all hates me. dunno why la. then secondary. bullied by so called gangsters, and seniors. well, church? erm.. yes, there are people who bullies me and i really dislike them. Sad right? haih.
Always when i try to treat them better, and not return with how they treated me, it gets even worst. like some people who are really important to me, how u know you are important to me? well when i buy things for you. thats how, because you'll always be in my mind and i'll always think of you. but its the people who are important that purposely hurts me.
then there is Natasha i was chatting with her also. she is one friend who doesnt care about what language you speak. what size and colour you are, i've been really searching for these kind of friends. the ones who dont bully you in front of everyone. i really like her a lot. not that i dont have =) Leechoo and Pei Tze =)
then i came up with this solution on my own, i dont wanna treat them good anymore. and i wont bother about them so much anymore. in fact, i wont do anything to them in return also. i will just ignore and avoid. Natasha told me, avoid all you want, in the end, they will come back to you. well then, let them come, i dont care anymore. because friends are not suppose to hurt each other.
they encourages, they help, they care. =)
They dont discourage, they never leave you alone, and they never dont care about you =)
well, if anyone of you have this kind of things bothering you too, then do something about it. dont be a softy like me. its not good.
Thursday, September 30, 2010
Annoying Customers
so i was watching a movie i forgot what movie is that la, then this client calls.
Me: Hello, Good Morning, Newsound Hearing, Im Samantha, Can i help you?
(yes i know its very long)
Client: ahaha, yes its (Name) here. i've booked an appointment earlier, but i canceled it.
Me: yes?
Client: can i book tomorrow at 10am?
Me: hmm, normally that would be no problem sir, but would you consider in the afternoon? because my boss just got married, so she would be really tired, so i dont want to waste your trip to come here and if my boss couldnt make it last minute?
Client: oh, ok, then erm... is 130 alright?
Me: yes, 130 is fine.
Client ok, then 130 then oh oh... no, 145 la...
Me: so 145 confirm?
Client: yes thank you.
Me: Thank you. good bye, have a nice day.
few seconds later...
Me: hello (bla bla bla..) same as the first one.
Client: AAHAH hi. its me again..
Me: haha hi, yes?
Client: erm i just want to ask yea, how long will the testing take ah?
Me: oh it would take while only, maybe like half an hour, unless you decided to buy. so it would take longer.
Client: oh ok ok ... thanks yea!
Me: no problem, Good bye
few seconds later...
Me: Hello (ahshajhcoauhdjc,n)
Client: HAHAH! its me again
Me: =.=? yes? can i help you? =)
Client: hahaha, sorry yea i would like to change to 12pm la... 12 pm is better.
Me: ok, so 12pm confirm yea sir?
Client: ahhhhh............ yea yea yea... confirm... ok? Thanks
Me: yup! ok... good bye.
Few seconds later...
Me: hello.... sjdhcisksvb ksv
Client: hahahah its me again...
Me: .................................... yes? =>
Client: 1145 la... would that be ok?
Me: so 1145am ok? CONFIRMED?
Client: yes yes yes confirmed...
Me: ok, bye =>
So, can you see how annoying that is? i know that im doing my job, so i cannot show my annoyed voice to him, so i have to keep smiling while talking to him.. then, can't he make up his mind?! imagine when u are watch a movie, then phone call, pause. then play. pause then play. beh shong right? its like a CD 'kik dai' already.
so the next day, i called my boss to tell her this fella is coming, but cannot reach her. so called her dad, and he, ask me to call this fella to confirm whether he is coming a not. so ok lor. called him and his ring tone is... the one selina and Leehom singing one. whatever song is that la i hate SHE.
while hearing the song and waiting for him to pick up. i was like.. this so so so gay... because i've seen this Man in person before. so, well-dressed, slighlty short guy, fat, has a driver to drive him around. So to my impression. this fella SHOULD be very classy? maybe enjoys classical music or whatever. but then this song came. my impression to him now? GAY.
Thank you for reading. hahahahah
Tuesday, September 28, 2010
Rich Wedding
but, they have like 10 dishes, if im not wrong normally weddings i go to have like 8? about that, though, its slightly the same, but different. and their portion is really BIG. i was so full, and they have guests, coming from other countries as well,
- India
- Thailand
- Korea
- Australia
- Brunei
- China
yes, i think thats it. maybe i miss some. so yea they are really rich. kinda feels like a fairytale wedding =) i wanted to have one too when i was young. hahhahahaha. where kings and queens from different kingdom come and witness the marriage of the prince and princess. AHAHAHA ok, im done day dreaming.
so other than the food, their gifts for the guests are different also, rose petal soaps, which are so much better than chocolate, coz they are really pretty, presentable, and its something different. well even their photos are,i can rate as the most beautiful wedding photos i've ever seen in so many of them. though they have like, studio ones, but its not like you've seen at normal wedding photos, this is much much better.
aiyah dunno how to describe la... but this is a really beautiful wedding =) and they really have all kinds of alcohol. not bad...
Friday, September 24, 2010
Updates II
ok, erm, first of all im gonna have to work on this Saturday, which i kinda wanted to help my boss, since she is getting married, and she's really really buzy, and i have to work till 430, but just for this saturday.
AND, im forced to going back to study. well, i actually dont wanna work, coz, i know that, once i work and earn my own money, i wouldnt wanna study anymore. but as usual moms always being the demanding people on earth, keep forcing me to work and work, and i dont have any choice, and now i dont feel studying anymore, she forces me to study, haih, at least, i dont need to take leave for family camp i guess. hahahha.
And i dont have any money to further study, at least not enough to complete diploma, thats why i stopped half way, one month's salary where can cover so much?! well, since she wants it this way, what can i do? haih, how much do i envy rich people now, haih, you can go shopping, living in a big house, having almost anything you need and want? though the house that im living now is bigger. but, that house is not my mom's money to buy from, its also my uncle's. and the previous house in cheras, also my uncle's. so? what do i have? my dog! yea... AHAHAHHA. so can you guys feel how blessed you are now?
i mean, i've seen people around me who are rich, but they are never contented with what they have, they see parents as an blocking object to what they want, but they never thought, how much their parents sacrifice to get where they are, and the money you are using is just their sweat and blood. at least you guys have PARENTS.. i only have my mom. Well, going back to study is a good thing i know, but im getting lazy to study. well, i think, im just gonna complete my diploma and thats it. im going out to work. i once thinking of going until my degree, so i could go UK!!! but. guess, it wont come true after all. =( but for you guys who could.. well, good for you ;)
Ok, im done being pathetic...
Monday, September 20, 2010
Back from Bukit Tinggi and Genting Trip !
at night - we ate BBQ, not even one drop of sweat, and per person to pay 20... is worth it. we have beer also. hahaha. then after the BBQ we rest and chat for a while and watch tv for a while and then we go out taking lanterns and go out for a walk together, the feeling of being toodlers came back! hahaha! then went to the play ground and wanted to catch some frogs to play, but couldnt find any to play, so we play with baby snails instead hehehehe, then came back wash up and all of us except wai loon who was really tired, sat inside my room and chat till 4am in the morning. hahaaa crazy? but we had lots of laughs.
the next morning - wake up, eat breakfast, bathe, pack up, and off to GENTING! and we were wondering what to do there, bowling? - NO, Rock Climbing? - NO. then we went to the ARCADE! and played colected tickets and redeem each person a screwdriver! though it may seem nothing much. but its really fun!!! so here u go the pictures you've all been waiting for, Facebook has more so go look it up.
me and Mrs. Yong.
hahahah like kids.. the liews.
The lovely newly wed couple.
AHAHAHA...
Breakfast!!!
me&mun: shoot 30!! 20 20 20!!!! LOL
Mun happy with the tickets!
Yea this is the one u gotta hit the thing when it comes out, not worth playing.. very little tickets...
me and Linus and Ah pui (fatty in Hokkien)
me on my Bed =)
Cyrus Cheating... you're suppose to save nemo.. not hit him... tsk..
Opening our screwdrivers!
Like this picture!
Ah Pui: MORNING!!!!!
one of the games they played...
I got no idea what we're laughing at.. LOL
this game is actually quite FUN!

HAHAHA! the picture says a thousand words..
Chatting until 4am
Linus waiting for breakfast!
Our Screwdrivers!!!

Genting Cinema!!
Heading to McD

Playing with our friend..











Overall, this i can say will be one of my unforgettable trips, i hope i can go with them again =)