the night before camp!

dunno what is wrong with my mom again... keep scolding me and my sis again?! we din even do anything, joke with her also cannot.. shit la... feel so pissed right now... she period is it?! but that is impossible... she stopped dy!

ARGH!!! i want all these to stop!!! im afraid i will kill her one of these days!! im so lucky i can go to camp now... even i dun have the camp mood... im really very very very very very very very very very PISSED! ANGRY! ARGH!!!!

In college now...

haiz... too boring dy.. today also wasted my day... first is my mom, now my lecturer.. my tutorial is only going to start next week... then my sis told my mom, today's morning class dun need to attend.. then my mom dun believe my sis... this morning, suddenly wake me up, i thought it was time to go to school, then i look at the clock... 9 AM!!!

Me: why wake me up?
Sis: ur mom ask me to, she dun believe this morning's class u dun have to go..
Me: ARGH!!!!
*then go down...mood not good dy*

then afterwards. get ready dy. get in the car, drive here drive there... sms my dear, then blah blah blah... ok... then reach college at 11 something... go look for my class... SHIT!! tak ada orang pun!!! BABI!!! i was so pissed!!! very angry with my mom.. why she cannot trust her OWN DAUGHTER wan ar?! i actually can sleep until 10.30 wan... make me so tired.. coz yesterday, went to church to help other group to finish their camp deco thingy... then come back at 12 am something la...

then today, my lecturer dunno why din come to class... waste my time today... ya, the food there... not nice wan... now bankrupt dy... no money... haiz... now my other class going to start dy, and it's very far away from the building... have to walk up and down the hill, then have to climb a lot of stairs... haiz...

Wasted Day

today... first day of lecture, my sis bring me to the notice board to copy my schedule. my sis lead me to the WRONG schedule. im year 1. she lead me to Public Relations Diploma YEAR 2!!!!! arr!!!! when i went to the class, i felt very weird, why those ppl werent seen in the orientation... then fine, there are so many ppl... maybe i missed them la...

then the lecturer blah blah blah... then i felt something really wrong... me and my friend was like... what is he talking about?! why i dun understand??? then feeling more and more weird... canot dy... quickly get out of the class... then it was raining heavily... both of us.

CY: how? wanna run a not??
Me: run la....
CY: har... wan meh??
Me: then why u ask?! u dun wan is it?
CY: hehe... dun wan...
ME: why?
CY: no la... afterwards my make up smear not good lor...
Me: die la u.. run la hao po...
CY: yer... ok lor...

then we ran... to the other side of the building, and no shelter, and it is a very long distance... shit.. all wet... im more wet because i pinjam my bag for her to cover her face... lol that fella really ar... then i go look for my sis in the library... then i was telling my sister la... then my sis's face change... into a very 'cute' and 'innocent' expression... then i said wrong schedule jor rite? my sis... hehe hehe..

then before all these things happen, i went to make my student ID card, such a long queue... then so hot, no chair, no air-cond... just stand and sweat... then my friend was like complaining... ask us to wait for half an hour.. but we wait more than half an hour, which made us late for our PR diploma year 2 class... after we got our card... hahaaha i was so happy until..

CY: yer... my picture so ugly... see ur one... yer... why so nice wan...
Me: aiya... naturaly also pretty wan la... haiz, u cannot dream wan la.. a fact is a fact.. :p
CY: eh!! dun look like u wor.. why so fair wan that pic.. aiya, dun use this pic to so inside college, better use ur offer letter...
Me: why?
CY: no la... u see ar, after the guard tuduh u curi student card not good lor hor??
Me: ...................................................... >:P
CY: hahahahahah!!!
Me: hmph! la~ la~ la~ la~ la~

hahaha. so today, not only i missed my whole day of class... i also wasted my whole Day... aiyo...

grown up...

this is me... cute right? hahahaha

i posted these pictures in friendster, after some times, i never look at it anymore... today i went to my photo album, and i see these pictures, making me smile like and idiot... many things i remembered when i was very young...


ya... this haircut... i hate it a lot.. i look like a boy.. my mom force me to cut like that... haiz..


this is me and my sis.. last time she really wanted a sister... thats why my mom gav birth to me.. if not.. i wont even be here.. actually, i was quite pissed when heard my mom said it... coz i thought bcoz she want to have another child then only gave birth... but acually, she only want 1...


this is me and my closest cousin Jack... just 2 weeks older than me... hahaha.. handsome rite?


this are friends for life... cannot reconize them... look closer... still canot? fine i'll tell u
*left, my sis, linus, cyrus, me... haha actually, they are my childhood friends and my big bullies... i remember 3 of them always bully me wan... make me cry a lot of times... haha..


now i become like this... hahaha leng lui leh? hahahah perasan again..

WTH =.="

today is my first day in college... i never should have go there... it was SO BORING!!! sitting there like for dunno how many hours just to hear them talk... and ask us to do something called *in Mandarin* ai de ku li... WTH... maybe Chinese school students know la... so lame...

and! the most craziest thing that i saw!! ALL the girls around me make up!!!! not that im against it, coz i also sometimes make up, but hey, u are only going for the orientation... somemore if thin make up, i wont say anything about it, but it is THICK damn thick! like got spirits around me... they are so scary... why put so thick?! day time suppose to be thin make up... why destroy ur own face... nvm... it's none of my business anyway... i just say it for fun..

then half way, they got the dunno what get-to-know ur senior in ur course la... but i din attend that... i went for lunch... and more over i got classes... so i have to go... lucky its orientation... my sis also never go b4... why i so stupid... went to leisure mall... then eat at delifrance... hahaha nice... then shopping a lil bit.. then went to my music class... then come back home.. damn tired wei... then wanna sleep... but... cannot sleep... haiz.. but i dun feel like eating.. haiz..

tomorrow i wont be going to college.. i dun wanna stay in prison... tomorrow going to see narnia with my sis... finally!!! i get to see!!!

My Family

this is a photo of my mom, dad and sis.. why no me?? coz i wasn't born yet... but i have to admit that im really jealous of my sis... hahha... this photo also made me cried for hours today. coz the more i look at it... the more i miss my dad... and the more i cannot stop crying...

i remember when i was young, there was one time i failed my exams... my mom scolded me kau kau!! but after that my dad said to me, 'no one is stupid, but they are only lazy.' then i stopped crying, and i brush up on my studies... not to say my studies very good la.. but the words my dad said really gave me courage to go on, and now, im going to college next week... i will always remember what my dad said, and i will try my very best to study as hard as i can, not only for him, but for my mom, and most importantly, for God...

maybe most of u haven't seen my dad before, sorry, i know the photo is very blur, coz, the original also blur wan... but this is the best i can ever find... but all i can say about my dad is, HANDSOME.... hahaha.. im serious... last time my friends all also say my dad handsome... siew mei also say... when she saw his picture la... even though i did hate him, but, i still know i love him very much, but i did not want to admit it... until i met him again... looking at him that time.. i was so happy and at the same time sad.. really cannot express that kind of feeling to u all... my dad hurt my family for so long. but he is still my dad...

now, everything has past, he is no longer here with me, i did feel abit angry at God sometimes, coz i did pray to him that he will let my dad live until i get married, and he will be the man who walk me down the...................... i forgot how to spell it la... but u know la... hahahaha.. i know what some of u will say... little girl's dream... or stupid dreams... but i know he has a purpose for it... or maybe im just asking for too much...

ok, till here... bye =)

Arguement with Granma...

just now i argued with my popo.. she is so.... i also dunno how to put it... this is all because of my stupid uncle... the story is like this..

my uncle came back from london to finish his EPF thingy, and after that he wants to go back, the problem is... he fell down and broke his ankle bone in london... his left ankle la.. yesterday my popo wanted to follow my uncle back to london, but my uncle said dun wan... he can go back himself...

then after he left, which is today... my popo was really upset la... coz she cant go with him.. my popo very 'mm gam yuen' then she starts hitting the wooden chair... like nobody's business... then i scold her for being so stupid... i actually understand how my popo feel... i know she is worried, coz of my uncle's leg...

but she has to understand la... how old is my uncle?? already 60 something!!! he is old enough to take care of himself... and my uncle also has to understand that this old lady is always like that... then why not bring her along so she wont fuss so much! then she scold me back... blah blah.. then i said... do u think after u hit that chair u will be in london?! with u hitting urself, u dun even know how to take good care of urself... how are u to take care of other ppl?! then she din say a word... come on la... even how many times she hit... its no use... everything has been done... she cant change anything by hitting the damn chair... i know she wants to express her angry to the chair... but not by hitting it ma... can scold me or whatever la... why go hurt herself... stupid...

i know why my popo is so worried... of all the 7 children, all got married except for him.. why? coz he is ugly... and fat... and in london... a woman cheated his money, and he stupidly follow what the woman wants... and last time, he always get bullied my othr ppl, coz he couldnt talk well... my uncle is a rich man, thats why a lot of woman only go for his money... but he very jimat wan... not willing to spend..

Dissapointed

today, i read someone's blog, the person was a friend to me la, and also a church member, but that person left, i was really afraid that if i was the person who cause the person to leave church, and whether he/she hate me a not? just to make things easy that person is 'A' la ok???

if it is really me who cause A to leave i will be really sad, coz i will feel like im causing A a big change in A's future... and maybe it might be a terrible one, but i already post a comment on A's blog, dunno if A sees it or not. but i really HAVE to agree on what A says, about famous ppl are only considered as a family member in church, coz i experianced it myself. and i can totally understand how A feels, ppl just say A is immature, but other ppl say that i very miang, but on the other hand, the gf's that they have lagi miang than me...

they really say like they hate ppl like me, but in the end, their other party is worst! and they are really hypocrites, i also once thought of leaving, but i just couldn't, coz that time siew mei is just a new christian, and just for HER sake, i stayed on... i was being laughed at, judged at, and even more terrible things which i don't wish to say.. i know that my church member are terrible ppl, but what can i do? btw, not all la, some only..

and that time i was really in love with someone, they also say i naik miang, playboy and playgirl, what a match!!! i am not afraid to admit i WAS a playgirl, but that was only because i dunno the meaning of LOVE... but when i found the meaning, they hurt me like i had no feelings at all... i was so hurt when we broke up, not even siew mei knows what to do with me, all she can so is just cry, and worry about me... which im really sorry about that la...

A, i really wish i have the courage like u to walk away from the door, and never looking back... but i don't... until now, ppl still say the same old thing... but, can i stop their mouth from talking? NO, can i just abandon my group and walk away and NEVER turn back? NO, im just not daring enough to do that, still some part of me wants to stay in that awful place...

for those who doesn't have problems like me and A, u are lucky, but dun click to close with them, or u will really regret.. i did.. and im really ashamed to to tell other ppl that these are my FRIENDS... my CHURCH... i know what i say is a bit too much... but if u dun like it is ur problem, this is the truth, already many ppl experiance it... there is more than enough prove... enough said...

YAY!!!

Wednesday, was Joce's Wedding eve, and also my LAST DAY OF WORK!! hahaha... dun need to wake up so early in the morning anymore! hahha!! so today, i stayed at home... relaxing, and drinking cold water, coz the weather is so hot today... the sun is shining very brightly, not a good day also..

and tonight, i've got practice with the CAR... i also dunno why everytime got practice i will be there, but im not one of them wor... hahaha... so weird... anyways since they need me, then ma help out lor... ok... gtg, the laptop is burning hot dy... hahahaha.. use too long jor..

and today, i chat with my very very long din meet friend... her name is takita terumi.. yup! her is a japanese.. but dunno how to speak japanese... hahaha last time we meet in sunday school in church... last time hannah, me and takita always stick together wan... hahahaha so long din talk to her also... miss her so much

01.05.08 Jocelyn's wedding

Yesterday, i was so tired, on the eve of Joce's wedding, went to church to decorate for the big day! i went there about 1.30pm, until 12am, i was so tired, plus i have to wake up at 6 am then make up, dress up, then go to Joce's House, while waiting esther to fetch me to her House, i took some pics outside my house,


we 'Ji Muis' are suppose to wear all white, and my sleepy look =.="


Lala wannabe... LOL!!!

then after the whole thing, me and siew mei go back to my house, waiting for her mom to fetch her back home, while in the car, i took picture with her, hahaha... too long din take pics with her dy...

Very leng lui dy rite?? hahaha...

after that, im going to her wedding dinner, but during the break b4 her dinner, i was trying to sleep, but, i couldn't, so very tired, my panda eyes... so i waited time to past by, until, 5pm, then i start to get ready for the wedding dinner, so jumped into the car, and took pictures again... hahaha, my make up, at the wedding dinner is this.. i currently like this make up... hahaha

hahaha...Nice leh... Jk only.. i like the dress only, but not me... =(


me and my sis in the car, her make up is quite scary, but, i make up for her wan la... this is the actual v- shaped make up... hahaha, scary rite??

after the whole wedding dinner, its time to go home, and im really realy really very tired dy... and i really really miss my bed.. but before that randy took a family pic for us.. so u get to see how sleep i am.. hahahha..

i forced myself to smile... hahahaha

so sorry i did not take the Bride's Picture, coz she was really buzy, and i really dun wanna disturb her, but, during the wedding and the dinner, i did took some pictures with her, but its in keith's camera if i can get it from Joce, then i'll post it la... hehe, OH YA!!! and i i fell sick after the whole thing... serious flu and serious sore throat... Joce! i wan my medical fee!!!! or what ever u call that... i wan my 'yi yok fai!' *it's in cantonese*