Blessed Birthday Baby~

enjoy ur birthday celebration with your group lor... i love you always. MUACKS!!!!

i wanted to put the picture of you, but its with PT... LOL. so cant~~

5 HOURS!!!!!!!

haih.. im really going crazy this time, now start to hate friday, why? i have 5 hours break imagine what u can do for five hours at home?! why make me stay here? my friday timetable class is 8am-10am then break then 2pm-4pm, they are wasting 5 hours of my life, and i will claim it. LOL.. jk jk

honestly i really dunno how can i live like that for 1 semester. and PT, remember to bring my pendrive tmr, guess what?! tmr is baby's birthday! although he doesnt see whats so important about it, but to me, birthday is very important, so faster go wish him! go go go! LOL...

anyway i wanted to give him a surprise, but failed to do so due to some 'halangan' LOL. so nevermind, maybe next year. or Chirstmas. or maybe i wont even get to celebrate with him, this is what i think la, since he's so popular, and his group loves him so much, so im sure they will give him a big party. so enjoy ya baby! muacks!

and im broke, LOL, i want to buy a new cage and new wife for my darling Hitam Boy, since this one hates him so much, LOL. i saw a big cage only for RM88.90 in carrefour, i went to Selayang Mall, saw a cage not that big and nice, cost RM99. wth. LOL, so i decided to but that cage, not sure that the money i saved is enough to buy that cage a not. LOL havent checked yet. my house too messy.

ok, i off to do a little assignment, bye!

NAUGHTY HITAM BOY!!!

this is very important to me! Hitam WAS lost. this morning only i found out, if im not wrong, he left his house since sunday, so he was lost for 2 days. then this morning, i just had a feeling that i must got and find hitam boy, then when went to the cage, all i can see is hitam girl. and i thought maybe hitam is hiding among the wood chips. so i start looking for him then i cannot find! so shocked and pissed and rushing time coz i had to go college, then called mom, and went to college. then just now we found him! he was hiding among the unpacked boxes, and when i found him, he was hapilly cleaning himself, and i cried after that... so relieved. and i am definately going to buy a new wife and sell off Hitam girl, no use at all, cannot reproduce, guess what? i thought she was pregnant, but then dunno why her tummy like subsided. so she's not pregnant after all

then today after class, i went cheong k with a few classmates. and they recorded the whole 'From this moment' song. while i was singing, dun watch the video, just listen to the song, coz i fat ma... mm hou yi si. the video havent load finish la... still got a long way.. LOL so here are some pictures to entertain all of u first.


me and vanessa


vannessa, yuki and zet yen


zet yen, me and vanessa


zet yen and yuki.

From this moment.MP4
dun know whether can hear a not~~ dun care la!

A tiring day....

Hey all you bloggers! how's your day? well, mine is really tiring, lets start from friday night, that night, i had to go bibu's house to sleepover, because Sat im going Sg. Gabai with group Eleazar, why? because when my group went i was in the examination hall taking my exam (stupid college), im now holding grudge against it. LOL, ok, so we chat until 4am something, and woke up at 7am something, still very blur, thn wait at church and off to Sg. Gabai, well, the water is really very very COLD! then a bunch of Malay assholes jerks tried to molest us girls, then guess what?! Mighty&Brave brother Yvonne came to warn them. LOL

so, happily playing by the waterfall and slide~ wee! LOL, then hungry, ate a bit, then play again, the current is so strong, then P2, Shammah went to Pudu Ulu to fly kites, tapi in the end tak jadi pun, why? coz takde angin.. too bad~ so we kick ball with the guys! yea! though im not good in kicking but i like to kick... LOL and after that we have potluck at Jason's House. yeah! then Weng said that i will K.O after going to Sg. Gabai, and guess what? i didnt. LOL, until at night la, going to fetch them back that time, so i have fought a good fight! LOL.and as soon as i reached home, i K.O-ed. LOL...

then sunday, still very very tired, after worship and class, i went lunch with Joce & Sun Sun at Kwan's, then go back to church and do the deco thingy for Outreach night. so that's all, bz right? then tmr after class, im going to Cheong K with college friends, LOL. so no rest at all. LOL.. and i seriously need a good sleep. have to upload photos, lain kali saja tag la. LOL.

ok, its late, and im K.O-ed again,
Good night guys!
The Dead One,
-Samantha-

TARC Lecturers.

hey guys, guess what? my class been canceled again... hah~~ when i was in certificate, to diploma semester 1, the lecturers and tutors are very hardworking, but now? haih~~ they keep canceling the class, wth?

ok, my mom's collegue needs to use the laptop now, i've gotta go... so update later~~

halo! im back! ok! where was i? right... well, yesterday i went TS with baby, barry, jenny, yenteng, munteng, and bibu just the seven of us and watched


not bad la... very touching also...

then fetched all of them back and me, baby and barry went for dinner near my place... heheheheh... well, nothing much to say for now... my blogging mood just flew away suddenly LOL... ok. night!

Are you a Christian?

Hello! pmr is over, and yesterday was a very very tiring and fun day for me, so is today la, woke up in the morning then prepare to go college, but tiba tiba my class canceled, so nevermind lor, then went to my mom's office, and then 10am something went to times square with piggy and bibu..

had lunch with eemay then 2pm we went Neway to sing K until 7pm... just imagine 6 hours of singing... LOL crazy right? but they all worned out after sometime, but im still high.. LOL and then went to search for baby's birthday present! and we bought dy.. LOL... baby, promise me you will use it? pls~~~

then long story la, cut it short la, we overnight at Pei San's house, (PT's sister) and watched TVXQ's 'O' jung ban hap concert.. then ate a few spoons of ice cream and king kai until 5am something and went to sleep...

and we had to wake up early, about 8 something. so dragging my feet... and then we reached the st john's place, and learned a lot of lessons just by helping them out. and feel that im really really blessed, and thank God that i can talk, because looking at those ppl, start to make me think, what if i cant sing? what if i cant hear? what if i cant walk? what if im down syndrome?! makes me learn how to be grateful..

and each of them are still very happy living their life each and everyday. and that's what suprise me... and at least God is looking out for them. and there's even ppl asked me: 'are you a Christian?' just by little things that i've done can actually show God's love to them, felt so touched and wanted to cry that time. and to tell u all the truth, all i've done was distributing water, food, cakes and ice creams. God truly works in wonders.

ok, so i have to get some sleep now
Good night.
Love,
Sam.

New Look!

i know to some or maybe many of you will think its ugly. coz not many knows how to like red in colour... i feel red colour has an attitude by itself. and very eye catching. LOL... dun complain! this is MY BLOG. dun like, dun read. i think this is my motto for my blog dy.. LOL

of coz sepcial thanks to BIBU TAN LEE CHOO who went through the trouble to help me do my blog layout, as i was too stupid.. i dunno how to make LOL... so i know its very very RED, but i like it.. LOL i love Red.

okie~~ so tmr i will be staying overnight at pei san's house pei tze's sister. hahha my ex teacher, i actually havent seen her since form 2? yea i think so... LOL and i have a packed friday. so i better get some sleep. tell u guys the details soon! bye! muacks!

Bloddy College!

haih.. i hate this college! why? i was at the library computer updating my blog and all, then while letting restaurant city to run by itself, and i didnt notice that the stupid staff was all the while behind me, maybe watcing what i was doing la, then i clicked on my restaurant city, and suddenly a black hand came out knocking on my desk and she said. no, means no games la, im not angry because she dont let me play, well a bit la, but what im most angry about is, halo~~ my privacy? my blog is only open to certain people, although no secrets in there la, but it is still my privacy! how rude for you to stand behind me and read my post!

college staffs have no bloddy manners at all! indian somemore! im not racist ok... but for some reason malays and indians always gets me angry. like recently in a lecture my lecturer is also an indian la, so when she came in and start talking with her aunty sharp voice, she has a lot of rules.

X handphones
X Laptops
X talking
X Lazing around
X Eating!

then my friend says, i also got 3 'X' for her
i forgot the other 2 la, but what i remember most is the last one
X indian
LOL, i will try to find out what are the other 2 'X'. haih... well, i have half an hour more for my class to start, and afterwards i will got zet yen's house to wait for my sis to fetch. boring school days ended for most of you, starting of hectic overflowing of bloddy assignments for me. peace!

Tag im it by Amanda

im now stuck in college and have nothing to do at all, yesterday i couldnt sleep at all, i was awake until 5am then only managed to sleep, haih... later i'll be fishing in lecture, LOL so im tag by my friend, in frienster, but im gonna do it here.

Random.
where are you now?: in college
why are you there?: go for class la.
is there anyone you know around you?: umm.. no.
define yourself in 1 word now: stupid

who is/are the:
first person you kissed?: why u wanna know?
male and female you've first held hands with? (not including family) and y?:
male: linus gua, play lor...
female: aunty liew or esther? coz u said not including family ma...
describe them in one word: liews?
is/are your best friends/close to?:
male: cyrus, linus lor.
Female: wow! a lot wor! pui mun, leechoo, PT, jocelyn, eemay and a lot la
who can u go to for best advice?: eemay or ernest.
the one you miss now?: my baby
do you wich to see now?:my baby

have you ever had/ have:
your heart broken b4? by who?:yea, a lot of ppl la!
someone you want to spend your life with?: yea
changed a person's life?: i dunno, have i?
cheated on someone b4?: no i dont think so...
boycott someone b4?: yea...

now, those who are your best friends are all tag!
tag another 2 who less update: umm... yannie?
and yenteng la.. LOL

dont let them down! =>

Mylo's Family!

well, today my class canceled, again. so im stuck at home doing nothing, then waited until dinner, and went to selayang mall.. not a bad place, but dun have cinema la, got hamsters, water fishes, rabbits. LOL...

so after dinner when gai gai a bit, coz we are still new in this area, this sat im gonna go st john's to help out orphans with bibu, PT and wing. haih. oh! wanna see Mylo's father and brother?


this is his papa! batman is his nama...


this is one of his brother. got another one but dunno go where, cannot find him, his name is bobo
look alike right? LOL

still my Mylo is the cutest... and my dog dun have rabbies!

Sorority Row

today after class i went to leisure mall to watch movie with baby. and we watched this movie, as G-Force was too late.



umm.. not nice to watch, its not as good as Orphan. so dont watch it. then baby fetch me back, but during the journey, baby is so tired, so sleep at my house for a while, then mom went to buy dinner with sis, then we ate, fixed the coffee table a bit then he went off to yam cha with wen cheong and his gay lover michael.

and i dun like facebook dy, i cant upload any pictures. nvm. i will try again tmr. hahaha!! so now i have nothing to do, nothing to say in my blog, those i wanted to say, i cannot say it here. but im really upset. haih... oh, baby forced mylo to dance with him.. LOL poor boy boy..


cute? XD

well, yesterday this naughty boy keep barking the whole night, you know for what? there's another stray dog outside and boy boy wants to play with him, but too bad he couldnt, and i couldnt sleep the whole night too. naughty boy! ok so thats all for the updates peeps. nite! muacks!

Ponteng-ed again~

hey guys, just finish doing my own stuff, today's real boring, and i found out some stuffs.

#1 - the sun always shines in every window, which makes my house very hot.
#2 - i found out being alone here is scary
#3 - this house looks EXTREAMLY BIG without my family here
#4 - eggs + mushrooms are a dream couple (heheheh i cooked mushrooom omelete)
#5 - i should not have ponteng-ed today
#6 - because i was informed that tomorrow's class is canceled
#7 - im really bad at cutting riped mangoes. (coz they are all lembik)

haiz~~ its hot and boring here, and i live so far away no where to go, oh and one bad thing living here, is that my annoying little cousin sister always come my house and kacau me, F.Y.I, we just live across the street. so she can just come by anytime, which is worst, i've never thought of her as annoying before, but recently? YES! i know my cousin brothers are reading this, so sorry, i really have to admit. but i cant blame her, she is the youngest, and no one plays with her, but my 2 neighbours are her friends, so no complains lor..

one day, i was practicing my nail art skills, because as you all know carnival is coming, and every year i have to do nail art. so nail art, you need concerntration! and if you are practicing, you have to do it on your own right?so when i need concerntration, i need to be alone, then thats the time she came, first she didnt disturb me so ok la.. painting my nails, then i need to open something la, then she campur tangan and terkena my nails. ............... what reaction can i give? i didnt scold la, then i have start all over again.ish!

i've already opened a video to watch, why cant you just watch quitely with me?before that she also keep talking to me, and all i gave was mm, oh, ah, dunno, i mean a smart person will stop talking right? but i also cannot ask her to go away, coz this will hurt her more. then my very first day living here, my aunt said to me you dont always come over ah, coz she scared i always go to her house. then i replied back to her, you tell your daughter, dont always come and disturb me la~ and since she said so, i wont go lor.

my house got a big mango tree, and it bears TONS of mangoes! yeah! there's a lot of them. so some of them fell down, my mom picked it up and went off to work, so now i at home got nothing to do ma, so i thought we should have some fruits after dinner, then i started peeling the mangoes, then cutting them, and because they're so soft, it makes it difficult to hold them, and i am NOT a gentle person. jocelyn always calls me Ganas!. LOL well, not in sports la. my action. i wanted to hold the mango a bit more firmly also cannot, takut pecah. too gentle, it will slip away from my hand. ish! stupid mango! why are you so difficult to cut? then in the end i managed to cut 2 mangoes! but overall presentation, FAIL! that plate of mangoes are ugly! haih... oh, not to mention the worms got into one of the mangoes. bluek!

ok thats all for today. bye bye!

oh monday~~

today is monday, where my 2nd semester starts, but today im naughty to ponteng, LOL,well at first i was planing to go, then my friend called, and said she's not going, coz she ter-checked year2 timetable, so wrong timetable, and she made plans for today already.. so end up i also dun need to go lor, actually its also quite a relief for me la, coz to once again face those horrible classmate, not too sure im ready yet.. im still in my comfort zone. LOL

well, i still havent get used to living in this house yet. and today i had a really good sleep. FINALLY!! cozfor the past 3 days i couldnt sleep. then my room isnt ready yet, and there are a few things in this house that hasnt been done yet, like some aircond, fan, those minor stuff la.

but now the house is clean dy... but too bad im still sick la, flu, cough and sore throat, the sore throat just got worst yesterday. haih... cant even talk properly now.. ok continue, sorry, i was keeping clothes just now, now have to wash clothes. lets see, i havent been updating any pictures lately, so my post lately very boring lor hor? umm i think i have one pic.


we were cleaning, and i am allergic to dust. so i had to wear a mask, it was friday night when we first moved in.

well, come to think of it, i quite pity my sister, although i dun like her, but i know she is still my sister, so im not that cruel la ok, not much ppl wanna hang out with her, and she dont really hang out with ppl, which makes her so alone.. then whatever subject she talks about or trying to make jokes, its not interesting or funny, and sometimes, she is too harsh.

i've been hinting a lot of things to her, but yet she still continues. i really wanted to help her. but i cannot straight tell her, eh, u not cool la. not to say u have to be cool to make friends la, but the problem is, whatever she do makes isolates ppl around her. i know she is different. but, she doesnt know how to make friends with ppl WITH her interest. like, try put her together with lets see, umm... sook kuan ah, jocelyn ah, pui mun ah, you think they can talk? absolutely not. and the most pity part is, i dun have the same interest as her at all. not even one. and now i really ask God why make the 2 of us so bloody different, u know, when i see the esther, cyrus and linus, they are so damn close. then i look at me and my sis. we are so close yet so far.

and some times i think she should be mixing with ppl like ritchie, richard, nicholas kim most of them from group beniah la, those that i can think of.. because their interest is quite same with hers. at times i also worry about her, when i go out with my own friends how about her, i also feel bad not pulling her in, because i know she wouldnt fit it. so what should i do? can anyone tell me?

In my new House

hello! im now officially staying in selayang now, well, a lot of shifting and cleaning and so tired... i hate shifting life, and im allergic to dust, so it is very dusty here and i have flu, my nose is bloody sensitive, and now also having sore throat, no time to even drink water, and yesterday i couldnt sleep well, due to the hottness and mosquitoes. so sat when i came to church, i was so so tired, i had go back to the cheras house pack a lot of things.. then had to rush back to church

but yup! my house is big. maybe too big for 4 people to live in. oh shit, i think i left my camera at the cheras house, ah... now im scared ppl will break in.. heheheh... ok, i have to wake up very early tmr, so i'll see u guys, bye bye!

Thursday

Thursday, 1st October 2009, 12:19am.
Hello, now im packing up and ready to shift, I still got a few things left to pack, well I have a good news, and of coz a bad news, good news is, my Hitam Girl is pregnant! At least I think she is though, but her tummy kindda bloated a bit. So I guess she is la,

The bad news is, I just argued with my sis, nothing biggie really, but she is really seriously immature, I cannot imagine I have a sister like her, you know, she never pack her things? She some more can act as if she done so much. I have to admit I have my wrong too, I was suppose to pack also la, but I did, but it took me some time break out of my laziness, but at least faster than her, well, it was like this

I took out all the clothes, my clothes and half of her clothes, coz my cupboard have to sections, folded clothes, and hanged clothes, folded clothes, got another section, one is mine the other is hers, so I took my folded clothes out, and all the hanged clothes, and the hanged clothes was most of her clothes, I only have a few clothes there,

Then I had to fold all the clothes and put in the luggage bag lor, during folding, my sis was playing game, then my mom yelled, only she drag her feet out, then she pack the cupboard where we put all out notes, papers, and books la, then before packing she daringly said, this is HER side, and this is MY side, halo what do you mean by that?! whose clothes am I folding now?! I know I also got complained a bit, but I also did do yours ok! Then furiously I said ok la! Then you pack YOUR OWN things, fold your OWN clothes! And she said I also didnt take out! Who asked you to take out?

I was so freaking pissed that I nearly went there and give a BIG high 5 on her bloody face! But I didn’t la, im not used to slapping ppl though, so fine, I calmed myself down, and told myself, from now on, you pack ur own things, I pack my own, and I will make sure I will do it everyday, until u get scolding from my mom, I will be a good little girl. So I separated my clothes and hers, her clothes that I folded, I just simply unfold it, and throw it on the floor and step on it for all I care, and my mom asked me, why u didn’t pack that clothes wan? I said, oh, they’re not mine.

You know, I really don’t know what have I done wrong against her, since we were young, she, linus and cyrus always bullied me, I didn’t say anything, until they made me cry, then in primary school, she tend to push me away, and for some reason I know she hate me, and the worst thing, she slapped me 2 times, for no reason. And she starts yelling at me for no reasons at times.

Secondary school, when my mom was sick, hospitalized, and about to die, I was so scared, and I cried with my grandma, I was form 1, she comfort my grandma and scolded me when I also needed her comfort, and when Sunday worship I normally sit with my mom, and since my mom is not there, I wanted to sit with her, again she pushed me away. If you hate me so much why did you want a sister?! To make my life miserable? Then I’ll pay back until you are six feet under! So until I know how to make lots of good friends, why now u treat me so good?! And what the hell is in your mind? Not to brag, but I do consider myself QUITE a forgiving person, but you are my sister and yet u treated me like this, without a reason. What do you want from me?

I know I also haven’t been good to you since I have my own friends in church, then that was the time u start treating me good. Because I thought, there’s no need to depend on you anymore. I won’t give you a chance to even come close to hurting me.
I had never hit you, beat you or slap you is because I still respect you. And also because, I have mom. And I still got a lot of her secrets I haven’t told my mom. I have my own secret weapon. I know yen teng u are always reading my blog, actually, I’ve always think twice whether to post these kind of things, but why I post is because not to let you all judge my sis, is not to let you all see only the bad side of my sis, I know she has her own good side, not to let u all see how good am I, but actually, im not as good as you think, I am quite a heartless person, I wont care if anyone dies, I dun even care I die. Like, baby, went to 2 funerals at one day, he was so emo, and grief for them, if it was me, I feel nothing.

Somehow when I think back the things that I want to do to others, it scares myself. And I really wonder how can I even manage to think such things. I myself also don’t know the reason. The more I suppress myself the more I want to do it or say it, for example, the F-word. I’ve been whispering it quite often at home now. I know its wrong so I AM TRYING BLOODY HARD TO STOP SAYING IT so don’t judge me first. This blog will be my journal. And I can say whatever shit I want. You don’t like it? Then don’t come and read anymore. So yenteng, don’t let me influence you. Its not good to be what I am now, same to lee choo, peitze, and all of you who are reading my blog. Geez… I’ve said too much, I should stop. Good night peeps. Muacks!