I feel stupid when im with u...

This is a conversation of me and a guy friend.

Me: what u think i should write for introduction?

Fashion is a very subjective topic
what is nice to one may not be nice to another
however, regardless of opinions
general forms and patterns of a certain object can be analyzed and broken down to bring out the fashion sense in it

O.o!!!

I also dunno what I'm crapping
hehe

LOL... u should be a designer dy
LOL

no la
I simply talk only la
hahahaha
no meaning wan XD

but quite correct also ma
sei yea... i hate u.....

what...
aiyoh...
all these zap sang I do for many years ady wan
impromptu ar
or last minute work
hahaha
just make the english seem flowery
padahal "mou liew" wan
XD

HAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHA!!!

i really laughed out loud when i read the mou liew part. LOL! he is not from my course, nor my college, nor are we studying a similar subject. but he can think of so many zap sang things. he is freaking smart! hahahaha!

God has answered my prayers!

i've been praying to look for a part time job and that job wouldnt clash with my time with my studies and my church time. and i think u all know why i wanna work, i wanna buy back my cam. so, my mom's friend is try to make a teaching class, they teach stuffs like make up, handi crafts, making bead bags and other stuff la, and since i know the 2 things, except for handi crafts, i can teach, and my mom told her friend that im good at nail art, then she starts to consider, then now, she asked me to learn up handi craft also, and my salary is RM 50 2 hours, yes, maby to some of u is not much, but since im gonna teach so much, i think i can save the money faster, right?

and my mom is asking to apply PTPTN loan, so i can buy back even faster, hahahah! im so happy! THANK YOU LORD! muacks! and i hope that everything will go well la.. haha..

M.A.D Practice.

i just came back from practice, and im really tired, and now have to do assignments, and yes, i got ditched by my friends again, coz they all went Super Junior Concert! and knowing i didnt go, so i had to finish up everything.

right, i need a model this FRIDAY for my APT homework, i need a girl with LONG LONG HAIR. i dont accept those with short ones. my class starts at 1pm, can any one help me? pls?~~ i really need a model, if not they with match me with another student which i dont know who is it. and its going to be really hard for me.

PLS~ reply me as soon as possible ya... and im thinking if Lee Choo can help me then good la, aahahahah can a not?

oh ya, the Easter Songs are superb! and im not going to sing soprano since i skipped so many times ( =( too bad) and my voice has not completely recovered yet. so im singing melody. hehehehehe. but the songs quite emo la. hahahaha! today's practice made me emo too... WHY?~ so be sure to come ya. dont miss this time's Easter. U WILL REGRET!

Penang Village

hello! i just came back from lunch not long ago, i went to Great Eastern Mall, and ate lunch in Penang Village, the food there is really nice, my mom is settling my medical card something la... i also dunno what is it... related to insurance wan, so meet up with her best friend, Uncle Arthur, he is an indian and he is super nice to me since i was a baby. haha! i remember i used to sit on his lap and play 1, 2 jus with him. haha!

i ordered a stewed beef with braised hor fun (dry) something like that wan la... and its super nice! but expensive la. hahaha! i wish i could take picture of it... i miss my cam =(

Tired~

i am so tired! as for my voice its ok, but i cannot sing properly yet la, yesterday i watched Alice in Wonderland, it is ok la, but i expected more from that show. hahahaha!

yesterday was REALLY fun... watched with Eemay, Yuke Bin, Weng, Seng and Michael.. then went for dinner and eat "tai cau" i duno is it because im really hungry, or the food there is really nice la.. hahaha.. then lots of laughing here and there, i never laughed like that since... i dunno when...

tonight got practice, i've skipped like 3 practices i think. dont really dare to go practice anymore.. hahahahaha! and i have lots to catch up... haih... malasnya!!!

MAYDAY! MAYDAY!

i now sound WORST than a slaughtered cow... no voice at all i repeat! NO VOICE AT ALL!!!!!

maybe what pui mun said could be true, it will become permanent... shiat... so should i or should i not go to practice today? i mean, at least i go there listen to the parts and get the hang of it, and HOPEFULLY i can recover la. singing is my life! yer... some say dun go, coz no point at all..

today im quite emo, after what someone told me in MSN yesterday la, though yes, i am very angry and dissapointed. not because of u finally think that I SHOULD KNOW, and i SHOULD HAVE KNOWN LONG TIME AGO. im angry because i trusted u, i asked for the truth for SO MANY TIMES. and yet u lied. and yes, i cried for quite long after i know the truth.. coz i feel stupid, im already suffering from cannot-make-a-sound. then i have to cry without a sound. eh... its very sanfu ok my condition now. and you choose to pick this time to tell me, when my wounds are slowly healing, and now u cut another deeper scar to it. i know i cannot tell, coz if i tell ppl will condemn. to me, if i dont condemn, what gives them the right to do so right? coz after all, its between us.

though now im still very hurt, but i didnt say im not happy for u. i am. i really am. and i'll be fine.
=)

Where's my Voice?!

my voice dissapeared, LOL.. i now have sore throat and cough, cough until no voice, so now i sound like a slaughtered cow... i am serious! i never missed my voice so much b4... feel so sanfu when i cannot talk and most importantly i cannot sing! and i have MAD practice tomorrow... hah!

and i cant wait for weekends! ;)

SICK!

yes im very sick now... hope to recover as soon as possible. Coz TODAY GOT PRACTICE!!!!!!!!!!

NOISE! NOISE! NOISE!

Im really going crazy! now in class, so my class canceled and i have to wait for my cousin. then there's this other group of classmates are extremely noisy! i feel like im in a war or something like that. there are about 10 ppl there la. i know PR students in TARC are well-known for our noisy-ness. but im very quiet la. LOL! you might think im over reacting, but seriously, its really like you're in a war. they didnt use anything like handphones, just with their voices they can sound so......................................... i dunno what to call it la. hooligan?!

Samantha is happy with her angpau money

LOL... yes i am. i got RM 351 heheheheheheh... and lets say i add up with my savings, about RM 90++ then can save more lor? hehehehehehehehehehe. LOL. mm!

oh and one question, do u think Samantha better or Tania? LOL!

Sweet.

i was sweet? someone said to me i was sweet when he knew me, i admit that i've changed a lot. i wanna change back to myself. and i couldnt remember what was i like. and when i asked him, he said sweet. and when i look at this word. i dun understand what was it. what's sweet?

and then i realize i really lost myself. coz i not only forgot how was i like last time. so my resolution for this year?

-become myself back!
- Diet!
- practice patience!
- self control!
- find myself a better person who loves God the most?~ haih... so unfair
o(>.<)0!!! LOL!
yes i am jealous of God. is it a good thing? LOL...
- Study harder! (i wanna go U.K!!!)
- and mostly, serve Him better, love Him better, make Him proud! of ME!