Lemon Drizzle Cake Recipe!

Hello Everyone!

Today i baked a cake and it was really fast and easy to make. so thought i could do a post for some simple updates!

Lets get started!

First, the ingredients that you will need is:

3 Large Eggs

2 Lemons

1 Tsp of Baking Powder

170g of Butter (Unsalted)

170g of Castor Sugar

170g of Self Raising Flour

110g of Icing Sugar

Pre-heat your oven in a 180 Celsius!

Method:

• Zest the whole 2 lemons 
• Add in the measured butter, castor sugar, self raising flour and 3 large eggs along with the lemon zest

• Using a mixer, mix with a low speed until you get a nice smooth batter! 
• Meanwhile, you can line your baking tin with butter or just use a non-stick tin
• After that you may pour that batter into your pan and put it in the oven!
• Same temperature for 40 - 45 minutes
• Make sure to check in on the cake now and then and use a skewer to poke through the cake
• If it is clean it means its all cooked, if not continue baking. 

• Meanwhile, you can start making your drizzle
• Using the 2 lemons that you zest-ed from, cut in halves and squeeze the juice out, u can use a sift to catch all the seeds from falling into the juice
• Add that 110g of Icing sugar into the juice and use a spoon to stir it all together until it is smooth. as per the photo above.
• It is suppose to be thick and gooey! 

• After your cake is cooked you can now take it out of the oven, poke holes through the cake, this is so that when you pour in the drizzle it seeps into the cake and makes it nice and moist!
• Let the cake cool completely before you remove it out of the pan, and after that you may drizzle the lemon juice all over your cake, wait for about half an hour before you cut the cake to serve.

There you have it! You can also use other fruits like lime or orange or even grapefruit! i did an orange drizzle cake, it was so nice! but make sure your orange is sour, mine was too sweet . 

Byeeeeeee!

Back to Black!

No its not racism whatsoever!

Taddaaaa!

P/s: I have no explanation for the poop nor the pig. it just looked cute.... and i needed something to fill in the empty spots.... Don't judge me! 

i dye-ed it back to black mostly because i've been missing my natural black hair, and my hair grew quite a lot after i dyed my previous hair colour, and u can obviously see 2 tones of black from the roots and red-ish brown downwards. Its not really nice anymore. 

IF you're actually wondering what colour was my previous one, it was suppose to be a really dark violet colour. i wished i had found the picture i took. but its somehow missing. hmm... but after the colour faded away it gives this red-ish brown colour which is very pretty too! Its been ages since i had black hair, i think im going to keep it like this for a very long time! And i think i've never looked better! =p BTW the black hair dye i used are all natural herbs so its not so damaging to my hair. She deserves lots of rest after so many years of torturing. hahaha!  

And putting aside this "Oh-look-at-my-hair" issue, my birthday is coming! and im really excited since i know my sis IS planning to take me somewhere. Its funny that when i was young, i always expect something for my birthday. like it is COMPULSORY for my friends and family to buy me something. and i usually dont get much, but nevertheless i was still happy. but this year, i dont really expect a lot, in fact i dont think i expected anything at all since i wanted a normal everyday dinner.. LOL! and it turns out that my mom and sis just planned to bring me out even when i said its okay if i dont celebrate it. mainly because i dont even know what i want. i am content with what i have now =D

It is this coming Monday. and i will be sure to take loads of pictures and post it on my blog since i have abandoned it for so long, and its getting really boring with just my pointless thoughts... kekeke! 

Byeeeeee!

Touched!

Sis took a 1 day leave on my birthday to celebrate with me. I'm honestly very touched, i know she loves me a lot! kekeke!

but when she asked, where would i want to go, on that day, i really couldn't think of anywhere because mainly i didnt think i would celebrate much. And mom is bringing me to a Korean - Japanese buffet! i feel super touched and blessed!

Thank God for Family! Now they have made me looking forward to my birthday! Thanks my Darlings! Xx!

On A Happier Note......

I know that most of my post about my thoughts aren't exactly uplifting these days, but i am happy that it is April now.. =)

Because it is my Birthday Month! even though turning 24 makes me 1 year older, and its true what people say, when you are in your 20s, you'd find time flies by faster. but its still okay with me, the old jokes dont affect me in any way =)

Though i know i wont have presents or even a cake, im fine with it, i'd rather just be with my family and close friends. and turning 1 year older makes me value a lot of things, and i genuinely prefer company than presents. because i would feel it is a waste of money for someone to buy me a present, which either i dont quite like it, or worse, don't need it.

So yea, i did think of how i wanted my Birthday to be spent when it comes, just a simple everyday dinner at home with the family, and maybe watch some of the videos of youtubers / movies that i've downloaded but havent watched on my lappy would be absolutely satisfying. Even though i do love cakes, but no cake, is still good =) because im trying to cut down on sweet stuff, which i starting to not like so much.

and i've really, realized how much i've changed, i used to spend a lot and always wanting to go out, eat really good food. and buy the stuffs that i dont use often, and thinking that its a must have.

Now i do enjoy shopping once in a while, buying shoes or clothes, and my favorite kind of shopping, (grocery shopping) but everytime when i wanted to buy something even though some of it my mom is going to pay for it, i would always think do i really need it. and end up putting it back to the shelf.

Maybe some of you shopaholics may think, yea, wait until you walk in a shop that has cheap sales. well, i did, last 2 weeks, Kitschen had a buy 1 free 1 sale in 1 Utama, i have to admit i was pretty excited, and there are a lot of clothes i wished to buy after i've tried it on, but i walked out of the shop empty handed. i have to say, im pretty proud of myself. *pats myself on the back*

im still learning, i know all the while money isnt easy to earn, and that it is not everything, so im still learning to have self control to not over-spend and to value the money that not only i myself earned but my family and friends earned.

Spams & Perverts

All these while, i have been getting spam messages on this phone app called LINE. And the worst thing is i've been getting pervy messages from guys AND GIRLS. Asking me am i free and they feel a little naughty and ask me to come over and play.

And the guys just snaps pictures of their dick and send it to me. or just send stickers of hearts and said that they loved me. When they don't know who the hell i am.

Then i started to think, How did they even find me?! and some of the girls did not know i am also a girl. is my profile picture at the top left not looking girlish enough? or i just look masculine all these while?? and also do others really respond to them when they send these harassing messages? Do they really get "business"?

So JUST OUT OF CURIOSITY i wanted to reply this girl who sent me a text and ask her to stop what she is doing and tell her to have some self-respect, but she just keeps on talking dirty to me, and i asked, Do you even read a single word i typed? and im not interested, and she said, well, you must be a virgin then, and she got more excited, and i got really disgusted and told her to stop, and she thought that im gay. thats when i realized she didnt know that i was a girl all this time. But of course i stop replying her, and leave it at that.

Compared to the pervy messages i've received i got more girls than guys, i mean, all these while, i know majority of girls are more pervy than guys, and im actually not that surprised... but even that, girls, IF there are any girls reading this, please dont do these kind of stuff, we deserve to be respected and treated like a lady, not a whore. And the best way is to respect ourselves first. Doing these kind of stuff cheaps you down, and guys wont even have any respect for you, lets face it, even though a guy would actually respond to you, do you actually think he will want you to be his girlfriend that he can bring home to meet his family? They just see you as a free lunch. even though if they have to pay for your company, they still wont respect you.

And i know most of the people in the world are already like that, and they see nothing wrong with it. but i still feel girls should be the way they were, gentle, feminine, conservative, polite. etc
I also know I'm not all of that. but at least i don't look around texting strangers for sex. and girls like that are hard to find already, and that's what makes you all the more precious and special!

Call me old fashion or conservative, i like it that way.

Apologies

I'm So Sorry.....

This thought just pop-ed into my mind, the word "Sorry" don't really make you feel better (or me.... at least). Now, im not saying situations like a person accidentally bump into you and apologize. Or a friend accidentally hit you in the eye. 

The situations im talking about is, maybe, you got betrayed by your best friend, or your spouse. Or you got bullied in high school. I AM NOT BEING EMO. i promise. i just had a good time of thinking about my past. 

i remember when he kept on saying sorry, because he finally decided to tell me the real reason for leaving me, and i had to BEG him to stop saying sorry.

Mainly because the more he said it, the more pain i felt, every sorry, hurts even more. And Sorry, makes me feel more anger, hatred and devastated. SO, sorry doesn't help AT ALL. 

And also the time my dad said sorry for leaving us, of course i forgave him, but i still have thoughts of blaming him for leaving because i didn't have the chance to experience what it was like having a Father and growing up with one. And honestly, i still feel pretty sad about it. And not to mention extremely jealous when i see fathers playing with their children, big or small. 

And also, bullying, well, i have been bullied, all my life in fact, but my type of bullying is a lot of teasing, at first it was fine, but the  "jokes" became more judgmental. To a point that no one had any respect for me or even think of my feelings. And i still remembered i used to DRAG my feet to see my friends, because they are the only ones i've got left. but after each and every meeting, i came home, feeling even MORE miserable about myself, to a point where i actually hate every part of me. 

And i always had a thought of standing up for myself, and stop all the mean comments they have been laughing about me, and i would always imagine, 2 outcomes which is possible to happen:

1. They laugh at me even more. i unfriend them. The End.

2. They felt guilty, and apologized. 

and when i thought of #2. the first (very brief) feeling i've got, is YEAH! In YO FACE! i thought i would feel really really good. but the more i thought of it. It doesn't make me happier. Because i was thinking, what are you sorry for? for making me feel miserable about myself? and you think "SORRY" would cover it? all those tears and self esteem issues which i still have. Sorry doesn't help. And i don't even want to hear them say it. And then after loads of thinking, i decided to just kept quiet.

But, saying you're sorry are manners which our parents taught us. but in serious situations like these, i would rather, that person who hurt me, just forgets about saying sorry. because it doesnt help and makes me feel worse.

However, Im a Weird Person. it doesnt apply to everyone. just me i guess. =) 

Why am i still single.

Heyyyyy~!

i have trouble signing in to blogger. why is that?? anyway, today my topic is to feed your curiosity, come to think of it, i think its been 3 years i'I've been single, Oh how time flies... 

So, many questions/ statements I've encountered with ppl who knows what happened in my previous relationship, is:-

1. when are u gonna find a bf?
2. are you still single?
3. when is it ur turn? (to get married)
4. pls find someone, u need a bf.
5. how come are u still single?
6. Oh My! you're still single?! come, let me introduce you to some handsome eligible bachelors..
7. Whats your name, age, and are you available? Samantha wants to know. 
8. You're 23, u need to find someone and get married and take care of you. 
9. I'm worried about you.

Okay, im serious, the 7th one really did happened, and i was shocked to hear that someone say that to a new friend, because it made me sound so desperate, i get that its a joke. but its not funny to me, nor to that person, you should have seen the horror on his face. LOL and after that, i didn't talk to that new friend, because i was afraid he really thought that i was desperate. 

And the 9th one came from my best friend, LOL, im more worried about him, than he is about me. =p And i am perfectly capable of taking care of myself. 

So don't worry~ Beeeeee happy~!

Now, i think i should sort this out, and to let you understand why im still single, 

• Its not easy to get a boyfriend

yup, its not easy at all, well, maybe to some girls it is easy because they have a face and body of a super model which every guys look for. For me, im short, fat, and average looking (i hope) kind of girl, and given the very bad experience of my previous relationship, its not as easy to find someone else. because some thing in me is very defensive. and it feels like it has a mind of its own. and i cant stop that kind of feeling. and its not like i have no standards, i mean u don't expect me to just grab a random guy and that'll do. im not desperate. 

and yes, i have ppl telling me to go on a diet, i will look much more prettier. but, the problem is, i don't want a guy that likes me because im pretty, and i know its first impression kind of thing, but, i want a guy who likes me for who i am, no matter what size im in, or how i look like. i mean, i will feel and trust that guy more better if a guy will actually like me in the state that i am in now. Which is a wreck. LOL Just Kidding. 

• I LOVE YOU

I cant say these words anymore. to the opposite sex, or at least it will be very hard to get me to say it. i have no problems saying this to my family though. 

• I have not been thinking of being in a relationship, for 3 years. 

Don't get me wrong, i do miss it, i miss falling in love, i miss going on dates, i miss having a bf, but i just miss the feeling, it just didn't make me feel that i want a relationship again. And im not saying i want to be single my whole life, its just that i haven't meet the right one, i guess? So i think what im trying to say is, Im feeling very neutral. if there is a guy who would ask me out on a date, and that i trust him enough, i will go.. but for now im still enjoying being single, and going with "the flow" and see where it leads me. 

• No guy is attracted to me. 

at the moment. LOL, like i said, i am nothing like the super hot girls that i mentioned earlier.