Why am i still single.

Heyyyyy~!

i have trouble signing in to blogger. why is that?? anyway, today my topic is to feed your curiosity, come to think of it, i think its been 3 years i'I've been single, Oh how time flies... 

So, many questions/ statements I've encountered with ppl who knows what happened in my previous relationship, is:-

1. when are u gonna find a bf?
2. are you still single?
3. when is it ur turn? (to get married)
4. pls find someone, u need a bf.
5. how come are u still single?
6. Oh My! you're still single?! come, let me introduce you to some handsome eligible bachelors..
7. Whats your name, age, and are you available? Samantha wants to know. 
8. You're 23, u need to find someone and get married and take care of you. 
9. I'm worried about you.

Okay, im serious, the 7th one really did happened, and i was shocked to hear that someone say that to a new friend, because it made me sound so desperate, i get that its a joke. but its not funny to me, nor to that person, you should have seen the horror on his face. LOL and after that, i didn't talk to that new friend, because i was afraid he really thought that i was desperate. 

And the 9th one came from my best friend, LOL, im more worried about him, than he is about me. =p And i am perfectly capable of taking care of myself. 

So don't worry~ Beeeeee happy~!

Now, i think i should sort this out, and to let you understand why im still single, 

• Its not easy to get a boyfriend

yup, its not easy at all, well, maybe to some girls it is easy because they have a face and body of a super model which every guys look for. For me, im short, fat, and average looking (i hope) kind of girl, and given the very bad experience of my previous relationship, its not as easy to find someone else. because some thing in me is very defensive. and it feels like it has a mind of its own. and i cant stop that kind of feeling. and its not like i have no standards, i mean u don't expect me to just grab a random guy and that'll do. im not desperate. 

and yes, i have ppl telling me to go on a diet, i will look much more prettier. but, the problem is, i don't want a guy that likes me because im pretty, and i know its first impression kind of thing, but, i want a guy who likes me for who i am, no matter what size im in, or how i look like. i mean, i will feel and trust that guy more better if a guy will actually like me in the state that i am in now. Which is a wreck. LOL Just Kidding. 

• I LOVE YOU

I cant say these words anymore. to the opposite sex, or at least it will be very hard to get me to say it. i have no problems saying this to my family though. 

• I have not been thinking of being in a relationship, for 3 years. 

Don't get me wrong, i do miss it, i miss falling in love, i miss going on dates, i miss having a bf, but i just miss the feeling, it just didn't make me feel that i want a relationship again. And im not saying i want to be single my whole life, its just that i haven't meet the right one, i guess? So i think what im trying to say is, Im feeling very neutral. if there is a guy who would ask me out on a date, and that i trust him enough, i will go.. but for now im still enjoying being single, and going with "the flow" and see where it leads me. 

• No guy is attracted to me. 

at the moment. LOL, like i said, i am nothing like the super hot girls that i mentioned earlier.