Monday, September 13, 2010

13 Reasons Why I Love You.

My Valentine gift from him. though he knows i expected flowers but he did something better =)

why i would suddenly post this up is because i finally found this, and i remember i wanted to post this a long time ago. but i forgot about it. so here you go.

he said that i would cry after looking at everything, and guess what? i DID. hahahahah












i teached him this, ITALY:

I Trust And Love You. =)



hmm i guess not after all =/


The Gingerbread Man i have him for Christmas before we were together.
his medals...




his old old wallet
this is it, the following ones are random things he gave me. inside this white little box contains all the unforgettable memories and things he treasures the most. thats why he said i would cry =)
i called him PO because he looked like kungfu panda. AHAHAHAHA



the bear he drew for me
Thats all =) hahahahahha

Thursday, September 9, 2010

Congrats! to Esther and Wai loon

Esther Liew is like my "half" sister, =) because i known her all my life. i remember when our parents bring us go swimming in KL Plaza, you would always swim underwater slowly then pull my leg to scare me. Yes... you're very bad.. laugh all you want now. hahaha, but im happy to have all these kind of memories with you.

Though, when we are growing up, we soon dont talk to each other anymore. until now coz we're in the same group. im so glad that God planned for us to be in the same group again, so now the feeling of knowing you for a long time came back again =) and im so glad that my first time singing for a wedding is for YOUR wedding. Thank you for picking me =)

anyways, you getting married makes me feel very young, and feels like its a long way to go for me if i ever have the chance la. hahahha. ok, enjoy the pictures and your last night as a "single" woman. hahahah.






Tuesday, September 7, 2010

Uncomfortable

ever since Jenruw died, so many ppl have been posting status on his wall and all, well, at first, its understandable. so i didnt mind, but then, it doesnt seem to stop, and it makes me very uncomfortable, i dont mind happy memories, but things so emo makes me emo, like happy things i've been through with him. but quite some ppl will talk about sad stuff about him with me and telling it to me also.

yes, i know its already one month, i dont really wanna remind myself. so that i wont dwell on these kind of feeling, i want to move on, i dont want to feel sorrow. its ok that a person who has a special connection with him says all these emo stuff, like his best buddies, his girlfriend, his family. but then just some ppl who maybe, not so close with him, or rarely talk to him keep posting on his wall and somemore about emo stuffs. im so sorry to say, but its really getting very ZAI!

i mean, his mom moved on... why can all of us? isnt his mom the most sad one? she can do it. why cant the rest? aunty always appear happy, and thats why i just enjoy looking at her sometimes. plus she is the one who gave birth to him, watch him grow, teach him, and loved him the most. (not including God la) she is such a strong women, and i can see from that she doesnt look pretending at all. i've been avoiding and avoiding all these post, but its TOO much. yes, he impacted a lot of ppl, im happy about that too. but somethings just.... enough is enough.

sometimes, only remembering him in your heart is just enough.doesnt mean i dont say anything i dont feel anything, i still feel sad, but right now, i just have to make myself let go, and when i am strong enough, i will remember back every 5th August. but now is just not a good time to remind myself anything related to him. i just hate feeling this way. all will say, time will heal, yes this is true, but time is slow.

Friday, September 3, 2010

Disrespectful people.

i find that some ppl are just very disrespectful whether in work, or college friends or even Church friends. of coz not all of them are like that.

i had a friend called me yesterday when i was about to sleep. then she complained about this other friend which is in college. saying this and that, her mouth always hurt ppl and never saying good things or compliment ppl. and thinks herself is perfect. haih.. girls just got a load of problems. well, i can understand girls are very sensitive. OK, im just going to name the victim... erm... Jean. ok? and the rude girl...... Jane! hahahha! alright.

i know this two fellas, in fact im the one who made them friends. That was before i knew Jane is this kind of character, at first all was well, then we started to discover Jane's attitude is seriously wrong. Janes a really pretty girl. Jean, is not,so sorry to say that la, but she's not la. ok. Jane has a bf and her bf means the whole world to her.
so she always thinks she's this Big sister and everyone is following her around. everyone likes her, but actually, no one does. but i still wonder why they mix with her. hmm. then, actually Jane always loves to "stab" Jean, not knowing/ dont care about her limits. so even little little things can piss Jean off, but she doesnt let her anger go, which makes her small. Jane is like i dunno, maybe she couldnt care less what other people is feeling. Oh, and Jane treats me the same way, but at least i will let her know my limits. when she goes too overboard. i will just give her a HUGE sign to stop or i'll embarass you back.

well, i know that some people are just like that, but to me, it is really unacceptable giving excuses like "I AM LIKE THAT". its like saying, you have to bare with me. so, i will just continue to stab you because im like that. wth?! people like this never put themselves in that person's shoe, try being embarass everytime, try being laughed at everytime. it doesnt feel good at all. And, being mean, and thinking you are better than anybody makes you have no TRUE friends. why? coz they know you cant keep a secret, or just care about them once in a while. though what jane laughed about jean is a small matter, but she is angry. why? coz feelings grow. and once a person reaches their limit. even small little things can trigger them.

of coz, i do bully ppl as well, make fun of them, but if im overboard i did say sorry. like my church friend PT! but at least, i have some kind of personal connection before i start to bully her, we sleep over together, pillow talk, sharing each others secrets. going out having fun. im not like, i dont really know you, then i start to bombard you with my "jokes" which is really unethical.
im just really angry at Jane and i really pity Jean. oh i remember that, my mom taught me before, "If Nothing Good Ever Comes Out From Your Mouth, Don't Speak" which is really true. a mouth who doesnt know when to stop. should really shut their mouth at all times.

Because hurting your friends does not worthyour happiness, in fact, making your friends Laugh in good matter makes your Joy worth while. i dont even know what im saying. but i hope it makes sense. and, the Bible did warn us about treating ppl right? i forgot where its from but, it goes something like this: Do to others what you want others to do to you. i remember theres one verse saying something like this la, so if anyone knows where is it from, tell me yea? so, if you like to bully ppl, expect that someday maybe someone will just treat you like that. if you are very straight forward in words that can hurt people, expect the same comments from others. The world is really unfair. so dont soak in your depression too long, or it will pull you deeper ok? =p

Additional:
i forgot to add this. Jane may be pretty. having the best Bf, but just because of the hurtful things she says. uglify her. coz beauty comes from within, not outwards. i pity her future husband.. i truly do. people who always talk bad things or make fun of ppl is never satisfied, never satisfied with their nonsense, and themselves.


Matthew 7:12
So in everything, do to others what you would have them do to you, for this sums up the Law and the Prophets.

Monday, August 30, 2010

Song Fest II


HAHHAHA yup! Song fest is over! no more practices and going home late now. hahahha! but i still have to practice this Friday. hahaha.

I'm so glad that even when Jordan got 3rd place, at least we did our best. a friend said to me last time when i was still young and i don't really understand what he said then, he said in song fest, sure have a lot of conflict between each other in the group wan, because if I'm not wrong my group was kinda in a cold war with each other, because song fest is a very stressful event for everyone, so we just have to let go all the grudges. yea though i don't have any grudges against anybody, but what he said about conflicts is true.

i know not only my group has but other group also have, so, at least Song fest is over, so just let it go, settle it if you have to =) but all i wanna say here is Thank you so much everyone for your great effort. I'm really touched and proud of this group, we maybe not the best group but God can see our effort and our sincerity. then that's what makes us the best in God's eyes. And that's all the matters. =)

Oh, and Mun Teng, i know you read my blog, hahah you see, so good, got special post for you also. hahhaha! you really improved a lot and I'm proud of you, you may heard this a lot of times from me, but i cannot express how proud am i.so yea, I'm very proud!!! before you improve, while conducting you, i really feel hopeless, because that time group's singing isn't so well also then solo also ended up like this. so very heart broken, and not much that i can do. Well, Thank God for all the encouragement that you get that made you stand up on your feet again!

Anyways, although other ppl will come up to you and say, hey I'm proud of you! but they wont be as proud as me. even sook kuan only teach you, twice! but i was there ALL ALONG so seeing how much you improved makes me feel prouder that anyone else. ahahahah, and what more, Araunah also got 2nd place so, not bad after all =p i don't know what more to say. just that I'm really proud.


I dont like this picture as well, but im waiting for more of our picture to come. HAHAHAHAH

Thursday, August 26, 2010

the 2 of US

Hey so my FB status yesterday said that my boss bf bought me snowflake =) i really never eat before, so before this, Leechoo said she wanna come and then tapao Snowflake fore me, so i said ok la, then u come now i wait for you, so on her way here my boss and her bf came in, and her bf is holding a plastic bag of 2 styrofoam bowls, then he begin to walk to my counter and said, Hey, i bought one for you =)

and yes i was so happy, though i dunno what was it yet, so when i see the bowl, "Snowflake, Taiwanese desserts and sercrets" something like that la. then i O.o! so i quickly sms leechoo dont need to buy for me coz my boss bf bought for me.

then she tapao dy came in, then i ask her what did you buy? it ended up the same dessert =) hahahaha! gam ngam geh~~

me, listening to Mun Teng's Solo

the 3 of us =)

Outside Pavilion, waiting for my sis.

My Snowflake

see... i told you its the same. hahahha!

Happy Feet!

Yes, we're still waiting






Senget face look.. hehehe

Retard Look

Stupid Faces look

The End =)