Ponteng-ed again~

hey guys, just finish doing my own stuff, today's real boring, and i found out some stuffs.

#1 - the sun always shines in every window, which makes my house very hot.
#2 - i found out being alone here is scary
#3 - this house looks EXTREAMLY BIG without my family here
#4 - eggs + mushrooms are a dream couple (heheheh i cooked mushrooom omelete)
#5 - i should not have ponteng-ed today
#6 - because i was informed that tomorrow's class is canceled
#7 - im really bad at cutting riped mangoes. (coz they are all lembik)

haiz~~ its hot and boring here, and i live so far away no where to go, oh and one bad thing living here, is that my annoying little cousin sister always come my house and kacau me, F.Y.I, we just live across the street. so she can just come by anytime, which is worst, i've never thought of her as annoying before, but recently? YES! i know my cousin brothers are reading this, so sorry, i really have to admit. but i cant blame her, she is the youngest, and no one plays with her, but my 2 neighbours are her friends, so no complains lor..

one day, i was practicing my nail art skills, because as you all know carnival is coming, and every year i have to do nail art. so nail art, you need concerntration! and if you are practicing, you have to do it on your own right?so when i need concerntration, i need to be alone, then thats the time she came, first she didnt disturb me so ok la.. painting my nails, then i need to open something la, then she campur tangan and terkena my nails. ............... what reaction can i give? i didnt scold la, then i have start all over again.ish!

i've already opened a video to watch, why cant you just watch quitely with me?before that she also keep talking to me, and all i gave was mm, oh, ah, dunno, i mean a smart person will stop talking right? but i also cannot ask her to go away, coz this will hurt her more. then my very first day living here, my aunt said to me you dont always come over ah, coz she scared i always go to her house. then i replied back to her, you tell your daughter, dont always come and disturb me la~ and since she said so, i wont go lor.

my house got a big mango tree, and it bears TONS of mangoes! yeah! there's a lot of them. so some of them fell down, my mom picked it up and went off to work, so now i at home got nothing to do ma, so i thought we should have some fruits after dinner, then i started peeling the mangoes, then cutting them, and because they're so soft, it makes it difficult to hold them, and i am NOT a gentle person. jocelyn always calls me Ganas!. LOL well, not in sports la. my action. i wanted to hold the mango a bit more firmly also cannot, takut pecah. too gentle, it will slip away from my hand. ish! stupid mango! why are you so difficult to cut? then in the end i managed to cut 2 mangoes! but overall presentation, FAIL! that plate of mangoes are ugly! haih... oh, not to mention the worms got into one of the mangoes. bluek!

ok thats all for today. bye bye!

oh monday~~

today is monday, where my 2nd semester starts, but today im naughty to ponteng, LOL,well at first i was planing to go, then my friend called, and said she's not going, coz she ter-checked year2 timetable, so wrong timetable, and she made plans for today already.. so end up i also dun need to go lor, actually its also quite a relief for me la, coz to once again face those horrible classmate, not too sure im ready yet.. im still in my comfort zone. LOL

well, i still havent get used to living in this house yet. and today i had a really good sleep. FINALLY!! cozfor the past 3 days i couldnt sleep. then my room isnt ready yet, and there are a few things in this house that hasnt been done yet, like some aircond, fan, those minor stuff la.

but now the house is clean dy... but too bad im still sick la, flu, cough and sore throat, the sore throat just got worst yesterday. haih... cant even talk properly now.. ok continue, sorry, i was keeping clothes just now, now have to wash clothes. lets see, i havent been updating any pictures lately, so my post lately very boring lor hor? umm i think i have one pic.


we were cleaning, and i am allergic to dust. so i had to wear a mask, it was friday night when we first moved in.

well, come to think of it, i quite pity my sister, although i dun like her, but i know she is still my sister, so im not that cruel la ok, not much ppl wanna hang out with her, and she dont really hang out with ppl, which makes her so alone.. then whatever subject she talks about or trying to make jokes, its not interesting or funny, and sometimes, she is too harsh.

i've been hinting a lot of things to her, but yet she still continues. i really wanted to help her. but i cannot straight tell her, eh, u not cool la. not to say u have to be cool to make friends la, but the problem is, whatever she do makes isolates ppl around her. i know she is different. but, she doesnt know how to make friends with ppl WITH her interest. like, try put her together with lets see, umm... sook kuan ah, jocelyn ah, pui mun ah, you think they can talk? absolutely not. and the most pity part is, i dun have the same interest as her at all. not even one. and now i really ask God why make the 2 of us so bloody different, u know, when i see the esther, cyrus and linus, they are so damn close. then i look at me and my sis. we are so close yet so far.

and some times i think she should be mixing with ppl like ritchie, richard, nicholas kim most of them from group beniah la, those that i can think of.. because their interest is quite same with hers. at times i also worry about her, when i go out with my own friends how about her, i also feel bad not pulling her in, because i know she wouldnt fit it. so what should i do? can anyone tell me?

In my new House

hello! im now officially staying in selayang now, well, a lot of shifting and cleaning and so tired... i hate shifting life, and im allergic to dust, so it is very dusty here and i have flu, my nose is bloody sensitive, and now also having sore throat, no time to even drink water, and yesterday i couldnt sleep well, due to the hottness and mosquitoes. so sat when i came to church, i was so so tired, i had go back to the cheras house pack a lot of things.. then had to rush back to church

but yup! my house is big. maybe too big for 4 people to live in. oh shit, i think i left my camera at the cheras house, ah... now im scared ppl will break in.. heheheh... ok, i have to wake up very early tmr, so i'll see u guys, bye bye!

Thursday

Thursday, 1st October 2009, 12:19am.
Hello, now im packing up and ready to shift, I still got a few things left to pack, well I have a good news, and of coz a bad news, good news is, my Hitam Girl is pregnant! At least I think she is though, but her tummy kindda bloated a bit. So I guess she is la,

The bad news is, I just argued with my sis, nothing biggie really, but she is really seriously immature, I cannot imagine I have a sister like her, you know, she never pack her things? She some more can act as if she done so much. I have to admit I have my wrong too, I was suppose to pack also la, but I did, but it took me some time break out of my laziness, but at least faster than her, well, it was like this

I took out all the clothes, my clothes and half of her clothes, coz my cupboard have to sections, folded clothes, and hanged clothes, folded clothes, got another section, one is mine the other is hers, so I took my folded clothes out, and all the hanged clothes, and the hanged clothes was most of her clothes, I only have a few clothes there,

Then I had to fold all the clothes and put in the luggage bag lor, during folding, my sis was playing game, then my mom yelled, only she drag her feet out, then she pack the cupboard where we put all out notes, papers, and books la, then before packing she daringly said, this is HER side, and this is MY side, halo what do you mean by that?! whose clothes am I folding now?! I know I also got complained a bit, but I also did do yours ok! Then furiously I said ok la! Then you pack YOUR OWN things, fold your OWN clothes! And she said I also didnt take out! Who asked you to take out?

I was so freaking pissed that I nearly went there and give a BIG high 5 on her bloody face! But I didn’t la, im not used to slapping ppl though, so fine, I calmed myself down, and told myself, from now on, you pack ur own things, I pack my own, and I will make sure I will do it everyday, until u get scolding from my mom, I will be a good little girl. So I separated my clothes and hers, her clothes that I folded, I just simply unfold it, and throw it on the floor and step on it for all I care, and my mom asked me, why u didn’t pack that clothes wan? I said, oh, they’re not mine.

You know, I really don’t know what have I done wrong against her, since we were young, she, linus and cyrus always bullied me, I didn’t say anything, until they made me cry, then in primary school, she tend to push me away, and for some reason I know she hate me, and the worst thing, she slapped me 2 times, for no reason. And she starts yelling at me for no reasons at times.

Secondary school, when my mom was sick, hospitalized, and about to die, I was so scared, and I cried with my grandma, I was form 1, she comfort my grandma and scolded me when I also needed her comfort, and when Sunday worship I normally sit with my mom, and since my mom is not there, I wanted to sit with her, again she pushed me away. If you hate me so much why did you want a sister?! To make my life miserable? Then I’ll pay back until you are six feet under! So until I know how to make lots of good friends, why now u treat me so good?! And what the hell is in your mind? Not to brag, but I do consider myself QUITE a forgiving person, but you are my sister and yet u treated me like this, without a reason. What do you want from me?

I know I also haven’t been good to you since I have my own friends in church, then that was the time u start treating me good. Because I thought, there’s no need to depend on you anymore. I won’t give you a chance to even come close to hurting me.
I had never hit you, beat you or slap you is because I still respect you. And also because, I have mom. And I still got a lot of her secrets I haven’t told my mom. I have my own secret weapon. I know yen teng u are always reading my blog, actually, I’ve always think twice whether to post these kind of things, but why I post is because not to let you all judge my sis, is not to let you all see only the bad side of my sis, I know she has her own good side, not to let u all see how good am I, but actually, im not as good as you think, I am quite a heartless person, I wont care if anyone dies, I dun even care I die. Like, baby, went to 2 funerals at one day, he was so emo, and grief for them, if it was me, I feel nothing.

Somehow when I think back the things that I want to do to others, it scares myself. And I really wonder how can I even manage to think such things. I myself also don’t know the reason. The more I suppress myself the more I want to do it or say it, for example, the F-word. I’ve been whispering it quite often at home now. I know its wrong so I AM TRYING BLOODY HARD TO STOP SAYING IT so don’t judge me first. This blog will be my journal. And I can say whatever shit I want. You don’t like it? Then don’t come and read anymore. So yenteng, don’t let me influence you. Its not good to be what I am now, same to lee choo, peitze, and all of you who are reading my blog. Geez… I’ve said too much, I should stop. Good night peeps. Muacks!

Will Be Buzy

hello, basically i dun have much to say lor, i only update coz teng pui mun bising. LOL. i am going to shift in a week's time, so will be VERY buzy, and i will officially be 'kepong lang' according to weng and seng, well, im now in CC just came back from Linus's house for Mooncake Festival. and uploading photos.



so how are you guys doing lately? some having their exams soon, i wish all of you Good Luck, and always pray to Him. now sis beside me is playing L4D by herself, hahahaha! very tempting now, but i have to upload all the pictures first.



well, groups are coming to an end soon, so i hope all of you will enjoy and cherish the time u all have left as a group. now im having gastric suddenly, i think is because after eating then play. i have nothing to do now than waiting for pics to upload finish and mean while looking at how my sis play. shit! family camp pics failed to upload, thats why i hate public computers. ish. sorry Pui mun, i will upload when im go selayang, i promise.



ok, thats all from me.

I'll be back!



soon.......

Bad Morning to begin with

well, this morning i have a really bad morning.. and was so pissed off. but come to think of it.. im really geng lor... LOL maybe not la. just kidding... ok. here goes the story..
my exam is english, 9am to 11am

so i set the alarm 7:30am la, then woke up at 8am or later a few mins la, because my house to college is about half an hour only la. including the jam and all. so i got up, and im always the last one to wake up in my family, but always manage to come early to class ok... why? because i wake up early also no point, if i wake up early, i have to wait until everyone finish use the toilet only i go in. so if thats the case i spend that time to sleep more la.. LOL. so everyone was ready except my mom, dunno why she havent bathe yet la.

so i bathe first. then came out, get dressed, sit on the couch waiting for my mom to finish then can go dy lor. my mom bathe very fast wan. 5mins only. LOL. so while my mom was bathing, my sis farted. and she went up stairs to shit, first i didnt know, coz i was so blur to bother about her.
u all know la.. morning blues~~ then my mom came out drank her milo, then both of us waiting for her... then my mom ask my sis. where are you? she said in the toilet shitting, while waiting i was already quite angry dy, when i heard her say shitting i was pissed! and f.y.i, this is NOT the first time..

then my friend called and say this say that. then i said la how can i come now?! she is shitting!! i am furious. and one thing is, i could've reach there early to get my examination slip, if i dun have that slip i cannot go in and sit for the exam. and it is with my friend, so i dun need to say u also know la? im definately late lor..

then i was asking one of the staff, how to solve the problem now la.. she ask me to go to the administration block, go first floor, and get a paper, so that i can sit for the exam, and i have to hurry because if im any later i can kiss the exam goodbye. if im not in the exam room by 9:30am. so u guys dunno how big is TARC rite? let me tell u, my venue to the admin block is like my house till the BHP station. and dun think its very easy. got A LOT of stairs to climb u know.. i and my venue block V, its up on a hill. so it has a very high slope. try imagine climbing up that.

when i reached my examination room. it was 9:30 sharp! and the fella is considering whether to let me in or not. bloody hell. i felt like cursing my sis! until she die! i was so freaking furious. i know dont have such word la, but i cannot express my feeling at that moment. and the given hours is 2hours for the exam, normally is not enough for me. but today i took 1 1/2 hours to finish the whole test. geng leh... LOL

then after the test i have to go to the cafeteria to meet my sis, and then go look for my mom. the whole journey, i didnt say anything, no expression, nothing. i mean if im still in class not yet exam then its ok for me for u to do that la. but halo. exam ah.. FINAL EXAM ah!!! i mean she also got Final Exam, and she manage to slowly go up and shit ah?! and knowing that every morning when u eat breakfast you will shit then why eat breakfast?! i didnt eat my breakfast, while coming back to the examination block i feel like fainting dy u know a not?! how old dy?! still act like that? 23 years old!!! u think u still young? no BF what also dun have! always act cool like u are some kind of dumb blonde! like a bitch!

then i reached mom's working place. all the staff (clown) already know im in a very bad mood. VERY BAD MOOD. so my 'sifu' he cheered me up. i mean since he is the one who trained me before naturally im closer to him lor. talk nonsense, tell jokes and tell me a lot a lot of ghost stories. hahaha! so now im ok...................................... a bit. coz i keep remembering that she almost caused me to fail my english test. and i really LOVE english very much.. so if i screw this paper. i'll cry and kill her.

~end of story~
the STILL furious one,
~sam~

going to watch up with baby...

hello! sorry for havent been updating my blog, was buzy and lack of sleep throughout the whole week of songfest, and after the week of songfest. haiz... my finals is on thursday, and i havent even touch my book at all.. lazy me. hahha... somemore go watch movie... well, why i am i lack of sleep? bcoz every night i have been sleeping quite late. about 2am la.. then have to wake up early in the morning, do a bit of things, then help joce with her deco thingy. then after song fest! i thought i can sleep early. i did, but i have to wake up early to go see my cousin sister chiaw er for she is leaving to Russia again..

so dun wanna go also cannot. well, now? i have to study and plan for our cousin's day out part II LOL no lar.. mainly to see my cousin Jack's gf... so i plan to go Aquaria with them, where we can talk and walk at the same time. smart rite me? LOL perasan giler.. well, im planning to bring baby as well, so i need to know all their schedule. and i found out that sze yong and sze hong has been reading my blog all this while. LOL so touch..

well, i am laze to post the pictures here, coz i posted in facebook, and im tired of tagging ppl. LOL so go look at the pictures urself. and not hitam is trying to escape from the cage by biting it.. for quite a long time now.. LOL i cant wait for my sem break. LOL i wanna go on holiday! okie.. im gonna wash up now.. and get ready, wait for my Sakai to fetch moi! LOL

oh and one funny thing, chiaw er and my aunt and my popo came for song fest, when my popo saw jen ruw on stage, she said: eh! sakai oh. LOL

have a great day peeps!