Tag im it by Amanda

im now stuck in college and have nothing to do at all, yesterday i couldnt sleep at all, i was awake until 5am then only managed to sleep, haih... later i'll be fishing in lecture, LOL so im tag by my friend, in frienster, but im gonna do it here.

Random.
where are you now?: in college
why are you there?: go for class la.
is there anyone you know around you?: umm.. no.
define yourself in 1 word now: stupid

who is/are the:
first person you kissed?: why u wanna know?
male and female you've first held hands with? (not including family) and y?:
male: linus gua, play lor...
female: aunty liew or esther? coz u said not including family ma...
describe them in one word: liews?
is/are your best friends/close to?:
male: cyrus, linus lor.
Female: wow! a lot wor! pui mun, leechoo, PT, jocelyn, eemay and a lot la
who can u go to for best advice?: eemay or ernest.
the one you miss now?: my baby
do you wich to see now?:my baby

have you ever had/ have:
your heart broken b4? by who?:yea, a lot of ppl la!
someone you want to spend your life with?: yea
changed a person's life?: i dunno, have i?
cheated on someone b4?: no i dont think so...
boycott someone b4?: yea...

now, those who are your best friends are all tag!
tag another 2 who less update: umm... yannie?
and yenteng la.. LOL

dont let them down! =>

Mylo's Family!

well, today my class canceled, again. so im stuck at home doing nothing, then waited until dinner, and went to selayang mall.. not a bad place, but dun have cinema la, got hamsters, water fishes, rabbits. LOL...

so after dinner when gai gai a bit, coz we are still new in this area, this sat im gonna go st john's to help out orphans with bibu, PT and wing. haih. oh! wanna see Mylo's father and brother?


this is his papa! batman is his nama...


this is one of his brother. got another one but dunno go where, cannot find him, his name is bobo
look alike right? LOL

still my Mylo is the cutest... and my dog dun have rabbies!

Sorority Row

today after class i went to leisure mall to watch movie with baby. and we watched this movie, as G-Force was too late.



umm.. not nice to watch, its not as good as Orphan. so dont watch it. then baby fetch me back, but during the journey, baby is so tired, so sleep at my house for a while, then mom went to buy dinner with sis, then we ate, fixed the coffee table a bit then he went off to yam cha with wen cheong and his gay lover michael.

and i dun like facebook dy, i cant upload any pictures. nvm. i will try again tmr. hahaha!! so now i have nothing to do, nothing to say in my blog, those i wanted to say, i cannot say it here. but im really upset. haih... oh, baby forced mylo to dance with him.. LOL poor boy boy..


cute? XD

well, yesterday this naughty boy keep barking the whole night, you know for what? there's another stray dog outside and boy boy wants to play with him, but too bad he couldnt, and i couldnt sleep the whole night too. naughty boy! ok so thats all for the updates peeps. nite! muacks!

Ponteng-ed again~

hey guys, just finish doing my own stuff, today's real boring, and i found out some stuffs.

#1 - the sun always shines in every window, which makes my house very hot.
#2 - i found out being alone here is scary
#3 - this house looks EXTREAMLY BIG without my family here
#4 - eggs + mushrooms are a dream couple (heheheh i cooked mushrooom omelete)
#5 - i should not have ponteng-ed today
#6 - because i was informed that tomorrow's class is canceled
#7 - im really bad at cutting riped mangoes. (coz they are all lembik)

haiz~~ its hot and boring here, and i live so far away no where to go, oh and one bad thing living here, is that my annoying little cousin sister always come my house and kacau me, F.Y.I, we just live across the street. so she can just come by anytime, which is worst, i've never thought of her as annoying before, but recently? YES! i know my cousin brothers are reading this, so sorry, i really have to admit. but i cant blame her, she is the youngest, and no one plays with her, but my 2 neighbours are her friends, so no complains lor..

one day, i was practicing my nail art skills, because as you all know carnival is coming, and every year i have to do nail art. so nail art, you need concerntration! and if you are practicing, you have to do it on your own right?so when i need concerntration, i need to be alone, then thats the time she came, first she didnt disturb me so ok la.. painting my nails, then i need to open something la, then she campur tangan and terkena my nails. ............... what reaction can i give? i didnt scold la, then i have start all over again.ish!

i've already opened a video to watch, why cant you just watch quitely with me?before that she also keep talking to me, and all i gave was mm, oh, ah, dunno, i mean a smart person will stop talking right? but i also cannot ask her to go away, coz this will hurt her more. then my very first day living here, my aunt said to me you dont always come over ah, coz she scared i always go to her house. then i replied back to her, you tell your daughter, dont always come and disturb me la~ and since she said so, i wont go lor.

my house got a big mango tree, and it bears TONS of mangoes! yeah! there's a lot of them. so some of them fell down, my mom picked it up and went off to work, so now i at home got nothing to do ma, so i thought we should have some fruits after dinner, then i started peeling the mangoes, then cutting them, and because they're so soft, it makes it difficult to hold them, and i am NOT a gentle person. jocelyn always calls me Ganas!. LOL well, not in sports la. my action. i wanted to hold the mango a bit more firmly also cannot, takut pecah. too gentle, it will slip away from my hand. ish! stupid mango! why are you so difficult to cut? then in the end i managed to cut 2 mangoes! but overall presentation, FAIL! that plate of mangoes are ugly! haih... oh, not to mention the worms got into one of the mangoes. bluek!

ok thats all for today. bye bye!

oh monday~~

today is monday, where my 2nd semester starts, but today im naughty to ponteng, LOL,well at first i was planing to go, then my friend called, and said she's not going, coz she ter-checked year2 timetable, so wrong timetable, and she made plans for today already.. so end up i also dun need to go lor, actually its also quite a relief for me la, coz to once again face those horrible classmate, not too sure im ready yet.. im still in my comfort zone. LOL

well, i still havent get used to living in this house yet. and today i had a really good sleep. FINALLY!! cozfor the past 3 days i couldnt sleep. then my room isnt ready yet, and there are a few things in this house that hasnt been done yet, like some aircond, fan, those minor stuff la.

but now the house is clean dy... but too bad im still sick la, flu, cough and sore throat, the sore throat just got worst yesterday. haih... cant even talk properly now.. ok continue, sorry, i was keeping clothes just now, now have to wash clothes. lets see, i havent been updating any pictures lately, so my post lately very boring lor hor? umm i think i have one pic.


we were cleaning, and i am allergic to dust. so i had to wear a mask, it was friday night when we first moved in.

well, come to think of it, i quite pity my sister, although i dun like her, but i know she is still my sister, so im not that cruel la ok, not much ppl wanna hang out with her, and she dont really hang out with ppl, which makes her so alone.. then whatever subject she talks about or trying to make jokes, its not interesting or funny, and sometimes, she is too harsh.

i've been hinting a lot of things to her, but yet she still continues. i really wanted to help her. but i cannot straight tell her, eh, u not cool la. not to say u have to be cool to make friends la, but the problem is, whatever she do makes isolates ppl around her. i know she is different. but, she doesnt know how to make friends with ppl WITH her interest. like, try put her together with lets see, umm... sook kuan ah, jocelyn ah, pui mun ah, you think they can talk? absolutely not. and the most pity part is, i dun have the same interest as her at all. not even one. and now i really ask God why make the 2 of us so bloody different, u know, when i see the esther, cyrus and linus, they are so damn close. then i look at me and my sis. we are so close yet so far.

and some times i think she should be mixing with ppl like ritchie, richard, nicholas kim most of them from group beniah la, those that i can think of.. because their interest is quite same with hers. at times i also worry about her, when i go out with my own friends how about her, i also feel bad not pulling her in, because i know she wouldnt fit it. so what should i do? can anyone tell me?

In my new House

hello! im now officially staying in selayang now, well, a lot of shifting and cleaning and so tired... i hate shifting life, and im allergic to dust, so it is very dusty here and i have flu, my nose is bloody sensitive, and now also having sore throat, no time to even drink water, and yesterday i couldnt sleep well, due to the hottness and mosquitoes. so sat when i came to church, i was so so tired, i had go back to the cheras house pack a lot of things.. then had to rush back to church

but yup! my house is big. maybe too big for 4 people to live in. oh shit, i think i left my camera at the cheras house, ah... now im scared ppl will break in.. heheheh... ok, i have to wake up very early tmr, so i'll see u guys, bye bye!

Thursday

Thursday, 1st October 2009, 12:19am.
Hello, now im packing up and ready to shift, I still got a few things left to pack, well I have a good news, and of coz a bad news, good news is, my Hitam Girl is pregnant! At least I think she is though, but her tummy kindda bloated a bit. So I guess she is la,

The bad news is, I just argued with my sis, nothing biggie really, but she is really seriously immature, I cannot imagine I have a sister like her, you know, she never pack her things? She some more can act as if she done so much. I have to admit I have my wrong too, I was suppose to pack also la, but I did, but it took me some time break out of my laziness, but at least faster than her, well, it was like this

I took out all the clothes, my clothes and half of her clothes, coz my cupboard have to sections, folded clothes, and hanged clothes, folded clothes, got another section, one is mine the other is hers, so I took my folded clothes out, and all the hanged clothes, and the hanged clothes was most of her clothes, I only have a few clothes there,

Then I had to fold all the clothes and put in the luggage bag lor, during folding, my sis was playing game, then my mom yelled, only she drag her feet out, then she pack the cupboard where we put all out notes, papers, and books la, then before packing she daringly said, this is HER side, and this is MY side, halo what do you mean by that?! whose clothes am I folding now?! I know I also got complained a bit, but I also did do yours ok! Then furiously I said ok la! Then you pack YOUR OWN things, fold your OWN clothes! And she said I also didnt take out! Who asked you to take out?

I was so freaking pissed that I nearly went there and give a BIG high 5 on her bloody face! But I didn’t la, im not used to slapping ppl though, so fine, I calmed myself down, and told myself, from now on, you pack ur own things, I pack my own, and I will make sure I will do it everyday, until u get scolding from my mom, I will be a good little girl. So I separated my clothes and hers, her clothes that I folded, I just simply unfold it, and throw it on the floor and step on it for all I care, and my mom asked me, why u didn’t pack that clothes wan? I said, oh, they’re not mine.

You know, I really don’t know what have I done wrong against her, since we were young, she, linus and cyrus always bullied me, I didn’t say anything, until they made me cry, then in primary school, she tend to push me away, and for some reason I know she hate me, and the worst thing, she slapped me 2 times, for no reason. And she starts yelling at me for no reasons at times.

Secondary school, when my mom was sick, hospitalized, and about to die, I was so scared, and I cried with my grandma, I was form 1, she comfort my grandma and scolded me when I also needed her comfort, and when Sunday worship I normally sit with my mom, and since my mom is not there, I wanted to sit with her, again she pushed me away. If you hate me so much why did you want a sister?! To make my life miserable? Then I’ll pay back until you are six feet under! So until I know how to make lots of good friends, why now u treat me so good?! And what the hell is in your mind? Not to brag, but I do consider myself QUITE a forgiving person, but you are my sister and yet u treated me like this, without a reason. What do you want from me?

I know I also haven’t been good to you since I have my own friends in church, then that was the time u start treating me good. Because I thought, there’s no need to depend on you anymore. I won’t give you a chance to even come close to hurting me.
I had never hit you, beat you or slap you is because I still respect you. And also because, I have mom. And I still got a lot of her secrets I haven’t told my mom. I have my own secret weapon. I know yen teng u are always reading my blog, actually, I’ve always think twice whether to post these kind of things, but why I post is because not to let you all judge my sis, is not to let you all see only the bad side of my sis, I know she has her own good side, not to let u all see how good am I, but actually, im not as good as you think, I am quite a heartless person, I wont care if anyone dies, I dun even care I die. Like, baby, went to 2 funerals at one day, he was so emo, and grief for them, if it was me, I feel nothing.

Somehow when I think back the things that I want to do to others, it scares myself. And I really wonder how can I even manage to think such things. I myself also don’t know the reason. The more I suppress myself the more I want to do it or say it, for example, the F-word. I’ve been whispering it quite often at home now. I know its wrong so I AM TRYING BLOODY HARD TO STOP SAYING IT so don’t judge me first. This blog will be my journal. And I can say whatever shit I want. You don’t like it? Then don’t come and read anymore. So yenteng, don’t let me influence you. Its not good to be what I am now, same to lee choo, peitze, and all of you who are reading my blog. Geez… I’ve said too much, I should stop. Good night peeps. Muacks!