Frustrated.

hey guys, in college now, well i wanna share this to ALL guys. i wont tell who is it, because this is not my point.

ok, here goes, i was onlining, then, all the sudden, "H" (dont try to guess who is it, coz his name has nothing to do with the initial) smsed me, and ask.

Actually, i forgot what is the EXACT whole thing, so i will tell u what i remember la.


H: Samantha, in your opinion, what is love?
Me: to me, Love is sacrifice lor.
H: is it that i sacrifice myself and called in love?
Me: erm... not necessary sacrifice yourself la.
H: is it that the sacrifice worthy? why cant love be sweet? it just simple and it makes ppl happy

Me:well, to me, if you sacrifice for the person, you wont think whether its worthy or not lor. like, God wont think whether its worthy to die for us, and we are really unworthy for it. and i gave an example of a friend that i know, who has a few financial problems, and yet, he still buy something expensive to surprise his gf and make her happy.

H: Sacrifice has 2 types, 1. visible and 2. invisible. its like, you know your bf in financial problem, and you still wanna ask for something good? or go and suffer with him? Love is just a word, but the expression is more to it. why do ppl want to feel loved? have u ever thought of this? did ppl sacrifice for yourself? its easy to find a bf/gf but does the person match you?

*me feeling this is getting weird*
Me: do you think that girl asked for it? my whole point is, you think that girl deserves or worthy of that thing? no right? but yet her bf still buys for her, coz to him, she is worthy to have it. and this actually proves how much does this guy loves her.

H: hey, you know, Friday night, my house area got someone got robbed and now the person is in the hospital. If the person is me, i got robbed, still go and buy a reload for you and i end up in the hospital today, is this call sacrifice or naif?

Me: This is call stupidity, why you will go out in the middle of the night?

H: then? just to want to make you happy and touched, but i dont think you will thank for that. why? i think because the person is me right?

*getting a bit pissed, but controls. DEEP BREATH, i dont know what is he trying to say to me*
Me: No, because if you do that, i'm going to be blamed by your parents, and people will start to judge me, and remind you that i DID NOT ask you to buy anything for me.

H: im not in hospital. (duh.. like i dont know that...) ok... what did jenruw do? Good things to you? why?

Me: O.o?! why do you suddenly pull jenruw in this situation? and why do you wanna know?
H: just want to know, why you love him? did he sacrifice?
Me: i loved him for who he is. as simple as that. and yes, he did. his time, his money and a lot more.
H: Then? what happened now? why this happen?
Me: what do you want?! just get to the point and tell me what u want!
H: it links to 1 point, sacrifice makes people tired? didnt you think?
Me: well, i dont think so, if you really love this person, you will feel every sacrifice is worth it. (then i said something related to the bible. i forgot what is it la.)

H: you think every couple is willing to do that? dont use bible to talk to me for now.. but 1 person will sacrifice more, and will feel tired when this keeps go on, how long was your relationship? 2 months? 2 years? try 5 years... you will see it, this is just naif, if you sacrifice wat you expect? receive back right? but if it doesnt? will you so it again and again? God's love is perfect. we are human.

Me: i dont think thats true. i sacrificed for jenruw, and i would say, every bit of it WAS worth it. i argued with my mom, my relatives dont like him (except for my cousins). time and money. but still. i was happy when im with him. so why would you say that, means you never really loved?

H: Samantha, how long you were with Jenruw? 5 years you got try before? starting all sure sweet and nice, but how long will it last? you sacrifice time? just like that? eg. i wanna go shopping but i dont want, because i sacrifice for him. is this call sacrifice? you think it will last 5 year? how long were you with him?!

(is pissed off)
Me: You wanna win is it?! ok, i let u win, dont argue with me anymore. and how long me and jenruw is has nothing to do with you!

H: No! i dont wanna win! it just that sacrifice is not the way. sorry..

*then he keeps on calling and calling me, giving me difficulty to even reply my friend's msg*

H: dont like that la, sorry, pls answer my call.

Me: you know what?! i dont wanna know anything from you, you pissing me off is already worst enough. Whats your problem?! Jenruw and i wasnt long, happy?so i wont know that it is SO tiring at all ok?! now... piss off...

then keeps on calling, and i ignored, but the buzzing is too annoying, so i turn off my phone and charge it.

H: if you dont wanna answer my call, nvm, think yourself, you got brain right? why it doesnt last long? Did you learn from it?i take my risk to talk to you. i know u're angry. but love is a 2 sided thing? you not tired, but you make people tired. why? have you thought of other person's side? dont little things want people to "pujuk" you, not everyone can continually do this. they will get tired. but you're not, but i just want you to know still got ppl can love you wan.

WHAT THE HELL?! WHAT IS WRONG WITH THIS GUY?!
Me: excuse me, Since when did i mm shong and want you to "pujuk" me?! and YOU are the one who started this topic. so now its my fault la?! very good. please dont talk to me anymore.

H: i meant it by when you couple. im sorry!!!

i still dunno what he wants and all. i feel so angry. he keeps trying to know about me and my past relationship with jenruw, why wanna remind me again?! does he even know how i feel when he says these?!

some of you might think i am wrong about this perspective but he ask for MY OPINION! since its my opinion, why would you wanna fight back?! and guess what, this fella is crazy.. he call me 56 times! i was so angry until i feel like my blood pressure went very high. just a feeling la though.

Enough said. enough done.