Thursday

Thursday, 1st October 2009, 12:19am.
Hello, now im packing up and ready to shift, I still got a few things left to pack, well I have a good news, and of coz a bad news, good news is, my Hitam Girl is pregnant! At least I think she is though, but her tummy kindda bloated a bit. So I guess she is la,

The bad news is, I just argued with my sis, nothing biggie really, but she is really seriously immature, I cannot imagine I have a sister like her, you know, she never pack her things? She some more can act as if she done so much. I have to admit I have my wrong too, I was suppose to pack also la, but I did, but it took me some time break out of my laziness, but at least faster than her, well, it was like this

I took out all the clothes, my clothes and half of her clothes, coz my cupboard have to sections, folded clothes, and hanged clothes, folded clothes, got another section, one is mine the other is hers, so I took my folded clothes out, and all the hanged clothes, and the hanged clothes was most of her clothes, I only have a few clothes there,

Then I had to fold all the clothes and put in the luggage bag lor, during folding, my sis was playing game, then my mom yelled, only she drag her feet out, then she pack the cupboard where we put all out notes, papers, and books la, then before packing she daringly said, this is HER side, and this is MY side, halo what do you mean by that?! whose clothes am I folding now?! I know I also got complained a bit, but I also did do yours ok! Then furiously I said ok la! Then you pack YOUR OWN things, fold your OWN clothes! And she said I also didnt take out! Who asked you to take out?

I was so freaking pissed that I nearly went there and give a BIG high 5 on her bloody face! But I didn’t la, im not used to slapping ppl though, so fine, I calmed myself down, and told myself, from now on, you pack ur own things, I pack my own, and I will make sure I will do it everyday, until u get scolding from my mom, I will be a good little girl. So I separated my clothes and hers, her clothes that I folded, I just simply unfold it, and throw it on the floor and step on it for all I care, and my mom asked me, why u didn’t pack that clothes wan? I said, oh, they’re not mine.

You know, I really don’t know what have I done wrong against her, since we were young, she, linus and cyrus always bullied me, I didn’t say anything, until they made me cry, then in primary school, she tend to push me away, and for some reason I know she hate me, and the worst thing, she slapped me 2 times, for no reason. And she starts yelling at me for no reasons at times.

Secondary school, when my mom was sick, hospitalized, and about to die, I was so scared, and I cried with my grandma, I was form 1, she comfort my grandma and scolded me when I also needed her comfort, and when Sunday worship I normally sit with my mom, and since my mom is not there, I wanted to sit with her, again she pushed me away. If you hate me so much why did you want a sister?! To make my life miserable? Then I’ll pay back until you are six feet under! So until I know how to make lots of good friends, why now u treat me so good?! And what the hell is in your mind? Not to brag, but I do consider myself QUITE a forgiving person, but you are my sister and yet u treated me like this, without a reason. What do you want from me?

I know I also haven’t been good to you since I have my own friends in church, then that was the time u start treating me good. Because I thought, there’s no need to depend on you anymore. I won’t give you a chance to even come close to hurting me.
I had never hit you, beat you or slap you is because I still respect you. And also because, I have mom. And I still got a lot of her secrets I haven’t told my mom. I have my own secret weapon. I know yen teng u are always reading my blog, actually, I’ve always think twice whether to post these kind of things, but why I post is because not to let you all judge my sis, is not to let you all see only the bad side of my sis, I know she has her own good side, not to let u all see how good am I, but actually, im not as good as you think, I am quite a heartless person, I wont care if anyone dies, I dun even care I die. Like, baby, went to 2 funerals at one day, he was so emo, and grief for them, if it was me, I feel nothing.

Somehow when I think back the things that I want to do to others, it scares myself. And I really wonder how can I even manage to think such things. I myself also don’t know the reason. The more I suppress myself the more I want to do it or say it, for example, the F-word. I’ve been whispering it quite often at home now. I know its wrong so I AM TRYING BLOODY HARD TO STOP SAYING IT so don’t judge me first. This blog will be my journal. And I can say whatever shit I want. You don’t like it? Then don’t come and read anymore. So yenteng, don’t let me influence you. Its not good to be what I am now, same to lee choo, peitze, and all of you who are reading my blog. Geez… I’ve said too much, I should stop. Good night peeps. Muacks!

Will Be Buzy

hello, basically i dun have much to say lor, i only update coz teng pui mun bising. LOL. i am going to shift in a week's time, so will be VERY buzy, and i will officially be 'kepong lang' according to weng and seng, well, im now in CC just came back from Linus's house for Mooncake Festival. and uploading photos.



so how are you guys doing lately? some having their exams soon, i wish all of you Good Luck, and always pray to Him. now sis beside me is playing L4D by herself, hahahaha! very tempting now, but i have to upload all the pictures first.



well, groups are coming to an end soon, so i hope all of you will enjoy and cherish the time u all have left as a group. now im having gastric suddenly, i think is because after eating then play. i have nothing to do now than waiting for pics to upload finish and mean while looking at how my sis play. shit! family camp pics failed to upload, thats why i hate public computers. ish. sorry Pui mun, i will upload when im go selayang, i promise.



ok, thats all from me.

I'll be back!



soon.......

Bad Morning to begin with

well, this morning i have a really bad morning.. and was so pissed off. but come to think of it.. im really geng lor... LOL maybe not la. just kidding... ok. here goes the story..
my exam is english, 9am to 11am

so i set the alarm 7:30am la, then woke up at 8am or later a few mins la, because my house to college is about half an hour only la. including the jam and all. so i got up, and im always the last one to wake up in my family, but always manage to come early to class ok... why? because i wake up early also no point, if i wake up early, i have to wait until everyone finish use the toilet only i go in. so if thats the case i spend that time to sleep more la.. LOL. so everyone was ready except my mom, dunno why she havent bathe yet la.

so i bathe first. then came out, get dressed, sit on the couch waiting for my mom to finish then can go dy lor. my mom bathe very fast wan. 5mins only. LOL. so while my mom was bathing, my sis farted. and she went up stairs to shit, first i didnt know, coz i was so blur to bother about her.
u all know la.. morning blues~~ then my mom came out drank her milo, then both of us waiting for her... then my mom ask my sis. where are you? she said in the toilet shitting, while waiting i was already quite angry dy, when i heard her say shitting i was pissed! and f.y.i, this is NOT the first time..

then my friend called and say this say that. then i said la how can i come now?! she is shitting!! i am furious. and one thing is, i could've reach there early to get my examination slip, if i dun have that slip i cannot go in and sit for the exam. and it is with my friend, so i dun need to say u also know la? im definately late lor..

then i was asking one of the staff, how to solve the problem now la.. she ask me to go to the administration block, go first floor, and get a paper, so that i can sit for the exam, and i have to hurry because if im any later i can kiss the exam goodbye. if im not in the exam room by 9:30am. so u guys dunno how big is TARC rite? let me tell u, my venue to the admin block is like my house till the BHP station. and dun think its very easy. got A LOT of stairs to climb u know.. i and my venue block V, its up on a hill. so it has a very high slope. try imagine climbing up that.

when i reached my examination room. it was 9:30 sharp! and the fella is considering whether to let me in or not. bloody hell. i felt like cursing my sis! until she die! i was so freaking furious. i know dont have such word la, but i cannot express my feeling at that moment. and the given hours is 2hours for the exam, normally is not enough for me. but today i took 1 1/2 hours to finish the whole test. geng leh... LOL

then after the test i have to go to the cafeteria to meet my sis, and then go look for my mom. the whole journey, i didnt say anything, no expression, nothing. i mean if im still in class not yet exam then its ok for me for u to do that la. but halo. exam ah.. FINAL EXAM ah!!! i mean she also got Final Exam, and she manage to slowly go up and shit ah?! and knowing that every morning when u eat breakfast you will shit then why eat breakfast?! i didnt eat my breakfast, while coming back to the examination block i feel like fainting dy u know a not?! how old dy?! still act like that? 23 years old!!! u think u still young? no BF what also dun have! always act cool like u are some kind of dumb blonde! like a bitch!

then i reached mom's working place. all the staff (clown) already know im in a very bad mood. VERY BAD MOOD. so my 'sifu' he cheered me up. i mean since he is the one who trained me before naturally im closer to him lor. talk nonsense, tell jokes and tell me a lot a lot of ghost stories. hahaha! so now im ok...................................... a bit. coz i keep remembering that she almost caused me to fail my english test. and i really LOVE english very much.. so if i screw this paper. i'll cry and kill her.

~end of story~
the STILL furious one,
~sam~

going to watch up with baby...

hello! sorry for havent been updating my blog, was buzy and lack of sleep throughout the whole week of songfest, and after the week of songfest. haiz... my finals is on thursday, and i havent even touch my book at all.. lazy me. hahha... somemore go watch movie... well, why i am i lack of sleep? bcoz every night i have been sleeping quite late. about 2am la.. then have to wake up early in the morning, do a bit of things, then help joce with her deco thingy. then after song fest! i thought i can sleep early. i did, but i have to wake up early to go see my cousin sister chiaw er for she is leaving to Russia again..

so dun wanna go also cannot. well, now? i have to study and plan for our cousin's day out part II LOL no lar.. mainly to see my cousin Jack's gf... so i plan to go Aquaria with them, where we can talk and walk at the same time. smart rite me? LOL perasan giler.. well, im planning to bring baby as well, so i need to know all their schedule. and i found out that sze yong and sze hong has been reading my blog all this while. LOL so touch..

well, i am laze to post the pictures here, coz i posted in facebook, and im tired of tagging ppl. LOL so go look at the pictures urself. and not hitam is trying to escape from the cage by biting it.. for quite a long time now.. LOL i cant wait for my sem break. LOL i wanna go on holiday! okie.. im gonna wash up now.. and get ready, wait for my Sakai to fetch moi! LOL

oh and one funny thing, chiaw er and my aunt and my popo came for song fest, when my popo saw jen ruw on stage, she said: eh! sakai oh. LOL

have a great day peeps!

Poor Mylo

i am really angry... i know overall, its mylo's fault.. but i really dun wanna beat him... he keep barking non-stop coz he wanted someone to play with... and dogs they dun have the hands and legs to play with you ma, of coz they use mouth la.. puppies play by bitting themselves also..

my mom keep hitting him... and slapping him.. i mean if he bites u dun like then dun play with him la.. keep on slapping him.. i was so pissed and scolded my mom.. then my mom went away la. then mylo keep barking again. this time my mom is too far... she sat near him la.. but didnt touch him, Mylo too excited so he will bark louder and his voice gets sharper.. u know how annoying is that sound? my mom go and tempt him some more..

again. i scolded her. this time not that want to... everytime i scold is when i waited for quite a long time, for her to stop what she is doing. and my mom knows that by her sitting on that particular place will make him bark even more.. why the hell she has to do that?! until one time i cannot take him i just took the rolled newpaper 'his rotan la' and hit him. and once i hit. i make sure he will shut up... my mom is really too much.. what does she wants?!

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then yesterday night shammah had songfest practice. then after singing for 2 hours or so, we went home, but me and leechoo felt hungry so we decided to go out and eat. then we went to Alim. nearby church punya mamak la. then opposite us if 4 youngsters sitting there, 3 jerks and a bitch. the other 2 is a couple. at first when i reach there, that girl was like staring at me from the start, heloo. i dun even know you.. why stare at me like i killed ur whole family? then jerk 1 he 'chut'-ed me and called like a hooligan: leng lui, he did that for a few times and i paid no attention.

then jerk2 says: che.. she LC only ma F--- YOU ah!!!
he said that really loud. when i heard it. i was so so so so so so so so freakinggggg PISSED!! i hate ppl using bad words to scold me. i dun pay attention to u, u must scold me like that ah? what law says that all girls must answer?! then im sure the other guy got his GF the same way the jerk 2 called me? dont u think its way TOO CHEAP?!

#1- girls like me. dun go with guys like them
(example:- will a well educated female go out with a begger?)

#2- why in the first place you 'chut' me?

#3- i have MY sakai. which is way more better than all of you!

#4- have you all took a mirror and looked at yourselves? pfft~

these guys are so pathetic... i almost wanted to go out to them can ask them u wanna fight is it?! and halo.. dun look down on me ok.. i got lots of ppl who are willing to back me up. im from SMKPI! then i start to think if i wasnt a Christian what would i do? i thoughts is:

i will definately lure them to an alley and cut their banana heads off! hah! *hiss*

what the heck!
~Sam~

Pictures and videos

her cake


her present


her card

Her Vids
Eemay's Present.

Eemay's present 2.MP4

Eemay's present 3.MP4

LOL.. see her reaction after receiving her present..

of coz we camwhore a bit.. im gonna post some, others u see in Facebook urselves la..

Hey!

hello! yesterday, they came at 9.30 am... hehehehe... then we watched pathalogy, then went shopping a little. well, we remembered its our dearst beloved eemay's birthday tomorrow, so we decided to suprise her yesterday night in practice. so we bought a card. 3 brinjal (LOL) a rose and a cake! we wrap the brinjal like a sweet. lol and cant wait to see eemay's expression.. so i took a video of her opening the present. i havent upload in my comp yet.. so i will post later. after shopping then we went back to my house and watched fear dot com... hahahha.. after watching we wrap eemay's brinjal. ate our cake. watch some videos, ate dinner.

wait for my sis then went to church.. LOL... ok im gonna post the pictures and videos in the next post now.. buh-bye