Better off alone

I'm better off alone, i dun need friends like them, they can continue to call for all i care, why must they follow me around when they dun even bother about me? I'm really fed up with them, i cannot take it anymore,these kind of ppl, they call you friends, but they dun meat it.

I'm patient for so long, and said to myself, its ok, its just for one year. i listened to baby and joined their conversation, over and over again, still the same old thing mentioned, all about their idols, meaningless conversations, why should i continue one like this?

today i finally couldn't take it. until i called baby, and heard his sleepy voice, i dun feel good waking him up, so i insisted of hanging up, even though i dun want too, but i know he needs the sleep, so i forced myself to hang up. after hanging up, i straight went back and took my bag and file, and ran away, far far away where they couldn't find me.. there's a saying, "the most dangerous place, is the most safest place." i totally agree on that, actually, i was just one the 3rd floor of a block, they can actually see me, if they were really worried and looking for me, but it turns out, they just walked pass the building...

they called me 4 times, and sent a message, "Dear, where are you?" i never replied, i should not have known them. you all may ask, "aiya, why so emo?" well, this is what I'm going to tell you, I've helped them so much. and this is what i get, every time when I'm with them. it just seems that I'm alone, if i were to sit in the same row with them, they wont know that i existed, ppl will not even know that i know them.. every time in English class, they treat me like a gem, after that? do they even respect me? now i ask you, do you know why I'm like that now?! do you still call there ppl friends?! bullshit!!

I'm not asking for anything in return from them, beside me now is a bunch of ants, crawling up and down, each of then, helping each other, communicating with each other, how i wish I'm one of them... this time, their on their own now. they are not worth my help...

pictures~~

i've got some pictures, but all also at shanghai night, hahaha!!! all also curi from other ppl wan... hahaha!!!


Oh.. this is chun fai...


me and him again


act cute hahaha!!!


john lian teaching a shanghai mui bible.. hahaha~~~


me and john lian


me and henri...


me and wing

there are still a lot a lot of pictures, i will try and get them, hahahaha!!!

Back from family camp!

halo!! im so sorry, i forgot to take pictures, yes im having a great time there, and im so tired, now im in college cit. doing nothing, just waiting for me sis... haiz... well, i took care of the kids, and its so much fun... made me remember the days when im in sunday school... hahaa!!! but kids nowadays are so so active and naughty...

now, my eyes are so heavy..even chun fai can tell that im tired... u guys know who is chun fai rite? if u dun, be patient i will update a picture of him... hahaha... now he is telling me a joke.. wanna hear? ok ok!! wait until he finishes first ok? haha... but his joke is abit ham sap la... abit only...

one day
monitor said : i so pity,everyday let people see

then keyboard reply : this calllet pity?? i everyday let ppl hit ok??

mouse : i more pity la,everyday let ppl pok mong

CPU : Zzzzz,i pity k? everyday let ppl hit my stomach circle

CD Rom : dont compare anymore,im the most pity,everyday let ppl chap

Floopy Disk : Shut Up!!! now got no ppl wanna chap me d!!!
then,

pen drive talk d : hey hey hey!!! enough,i know i let ppl use to chap here,after finish then chap there,chap here chap there,sometimes if accidently will kena 'disease'

CPU talk again : Oih!!! u know at after u and your gang chap inside d then dint move anymore,thats only what call SUFFER!!!

at last,Speaker veryyyyy angry,his face soooo red : !@#$%, u are the one who kena chap,but i am the one who always shout????!!!!!

hahaha!!! i really needed a joke...

funny right?? now, where was i?? oh ya.. the 1st night, i couldnt sleep at all, coz it was too cold, when i can finally sleep, i heard abigail's voice, so so loud... ARGHH!!! then i have to force myself to wake up... so tired, but the 2nd night ok ok lar... got wake up abit la.. the last night i straight fall asleep, after coming back from genting, im too tired already... ok ok, it going to be 1, i have to so now... bye bye~~

Wisdom Tooth be gone!!!

yeah!!! well, pass few days, my wisdom tooth is trying to come out, and it hurts so much, i open my mouth or close my mouth also aches, i dun move my mouth also pain... so cham... somemore can see my left cheek swollen also... eat that time also suffering.. it like something mums, anyone kena before, in cantonese is call pig head skin 'chu tau pei' hahaha!!! i kena b4 when i was really young, and it hurts...

now, i still feel a bit of sting la, but at least i can eat happily... thank God so much... and im really really excited about Family Camp! arent you all, well for those who couldnt make it and wanted too, nevermind, there is always next year =)... but i promise i'll take lots of pictures... hehe, oh, im also excited about Family Camp because i'll be sitting in Baby's car! hehehe! well, i just feel very happy rite now, mama also approved of me and baby, so i have nothing to hide anymore, i can talk about baby to mama and mama will just listen and laugh along, she even makes fun of him when he's not around.. hahah... im not gonna tell you what she said, after baby know... hehe...

well, i have to get ready for class, feel like slacking, and poor baby, falling ill, i hope that in this camp, baby can relax a bit, so he wont be so stress... im afraid that i will disturb him... hahaha... ok, i have to stop here, OH and remember, for shanghai nite, everybody must come out with an outfit ar! i dun care how u do it... but just come out with one... dun need very chinese wan la... shangai that time also got western ppl wan ma... hehehe.... ok

toodles!!!
muacks!

Less Updates...

there was a time there was many ppl so into blogging, but now, i couldnt see any updates in thier blogs anymore, ran out of something to blog?

i can only see a few updates on few blogs, others, still on the same post... haiz... so boring now... i really dunno what to do... oh, and my salary, end of november i only can get... haiz... so long... why?!!! ok, im going to tell u guys what im going to do after i get my salary, give 10% to God, then i wanna do rebonding, and i cant do anything for baby's birthday... i will try and find money for baby's birthday... yup... thats all, and the rest? will go into the bank... haaha.. alright, its raining, i better stop here... bye bye...

I Have been Visual Raped.

Yes it is true, well, actually, i didnt know this word, but when everytime someone looking at me, i will feel very uncomfortable, and i will complain to my mom, and all my mom said is, ppl look at you only ma... why complain so much, but what my mom dun understand is, they keep looking at me whenever they have the chance, and it always happened in a traffic jam...

Well today, my sis drive me home, and some old fart was driving a delivery truck or something like that, yes, i noticed him looking at me, but i dun wanna care so much, but what happened is, when he was beside our car in the other line, he was smiling at me, and that smile was very 'yam siu' and when he pass by our car, he keep looking back and smiling... what the?! and then i told my sis, so my sis told me why i feel very uncomfortable is because, there is such thing as visual raping, means that when a guy is looking at you, he is raping you in his mind. therefore, he will keep looking at you... you know how pissed was i? any girls been visual raped before?

can anyone understand my feeling? ARGHHH!!!!!! i just dun like ppl looking at me like that... feel like no privacy...

Meaning of Your Name

A: Best Gf/Bf any one could have
B: You love a certain someone
C: People cant help but check u out
D: You are really lovable
E: People love you the way you are
F: Easy to fall in love with
G: You never let people tell you what to do
H: You have a very good personality and good looks
I : People love you
J : People Adore you
K : You're wild and crazy
L: AWESOME KISSER
M: Beautiful
N : Easy to fall in love with
O : Best kisser ever
P : You are popular with all types of people
Q : You are a hypocrite
R: You love to kiss
S: You are freakin crazy
T: You are loyal to the ones you love
U: You really like to chill
V: your not judgmental
W: You are popular
X: You never let people tell you
Y: Sexiest bitch alive
Z: Never good enough

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S : You are freakin crazy (no,this is not me, it's pui mun...)
A : Best Gf/Bf any one could have (of coz~~)
M: Beautiful (hahaaha~~~)
A : Best Gf/Bf any one could have
N : Easy to fall in love with (am i so lovable?? hehe~)
T : You are loyal to the ones you love (yes)
H : You have a very good personality and good looks (very very true a this one~)
A : Best Gf/Bf any one could have

C : People cant help but check u out (haha~~ do they?)
H : You have a very good personality and good looks
A : Best Gf/Bf any one could have
N : Easy to fall in love with
G : You never let people tell you what to do (hahaha~~ yea yea)

P : You are popular with all types of people (i am?)
U : You really like to chill (i think so gua...)
I : People love you (thank you~~)

M: Beautiful
A : Best Gf/Bf any one could have
Y : Sexiest bitch alive (hmm~~ i dunno la this one~)

lets see baby's full name.... hahahaha!!!

A : Best Gf/Bf any one could have (hmm~~ ok la... :p)
N : Easy to fall in love with (no lor....)
D : You are really lovable (ya meh?)
R : You love to kiss (is it??)
E : People love you the way you are (this one have to ask other ppl)
W: You are popular (umm~~ considered la..)

S : You are freakin crazy (yes he is)
O : Best kisser ever (la~ la~ la~ la~)
O : Best kisser ever

J : People Adore you (they do?!!)
E : People love you the way you are
N : Easy to fall in love with

R : You love to kiss
U : You really like to chill (this is very very true!!!)
W: You are popular

Lucky my baby is not a sexiest bitch alive... hahaha!!! hor pui mun~~~~