23rd JUN

it is my friend's birthday...zi yang, why i suddenly post this is because it is the most stupid thing i ever did in my whole in tire life! guess what? we sang a birthday song... nothing stupid rite? but try it in a mamak stall... hahaha so embarrasing... so many ppl looking also... but he feel touched... so its worth it... and we couldn't buy a cake for him, coz we only knkow it on that day... so just a simple celebration la...


me and the birthday boy....


haha!! he wasn't sleeping btw, he was just memorizing for a test thats coming...


other college friends, siew mei (haha!!), mei chiou, and me...

before that he was really a very quiet person... but after the next day, he talked to me! wow... hahaha i feel lagi touch... coz everytime when i talk to this fella, the response are :- mm, ah, oh... =.=" swt... but now he talk to me... a lot somemore... dunno what's wrong with the pictures, i rotate it dy wan, but still like that, guess ya'll have to turn your head... sorry hahaha!!!!

Wedding Dinner- Saturday

it was my cousin's brother's wedding dinner... so rushed back to home from church, at about 5pm... then quickly help my mom and sis to make up... so quickly to the pictures...


this is the dress i wore... nice rite?? hahahah


my make up, hahaha.. seems like i improved a lot... ohohoho


somehow we looked alike... weird...


reached the place dy... so took another picture....


dunno why my sis became so photogenic on that day... must be the make up XP


me and jack again.... hahaha


me, jack and sis


me and my cutest cousin... tzen... love him so much...

there are still a lot of pictures, but its all with jack, then after that me and jack acted drunk... coz we really drank a lot... until our faces is red..LOL... all because of our uncle who keep forcing us to drink... but we had fun... can't wait for another dinner to come... which is going to be on November... till then...

how i know i love you

i know when i dun wanna sleep in the car so i can be with you
i know when its late and i should sleep but i still dun wanna hang up
i know when im posting this....
i know u will be very happy after u see this... so bcoz of u i only post this.
i know when i feel very safe when im with you
i know when i always smile like an idiot when i see ur name on my phone
i know when i very happy that my friends wanted to meet you... but too bad for them
i know i feel really geli right now... and dun wanna go on typing... but i still do.
i know when u feel angry at Frank i will be very nervous, not bcoz u will hurt him, but because u will hurt urself...

ok la... i really feel very geli jor... this is the first and last time im doing this dy! i feel goosebumps all over jor... Happy a not???

my mom loves me...

i already know that a long time la... but this time is different... well, yesterday i went out with my po! then i din know my mom is waiting for me... coz she say she wanna go visit linus... i thought she was going alone... then my mom called... she sounds angry la.. so im actually afraid to go back home, and another part of me also dun wanna go back home... coz...... u know why la... dun pura-pura tak tahu...

then po fetch me back home... when i reach the gate... i was very scared my mom will scold me... coz my mom is like ayam betina... then when i go in... my mom said... we are going now la... wanna go toilet a not?? my mom so gentle wan... i did say sorry la... so then my mom was like extra gentle to me... then dinner she took me to cozy house... hahaha... the food there really nice...

then actually, i really feel very bad... coz my mom dunno anything about me and po... and because i am afraid if my mom knows... she will ask me to break up with him... i lied to her everytime when im with him... i really feel very guilty.. dunno what to do... then i was thinking what if one day my mom ask me.. am i together with him?? what should i answer? yes or no? i want to say yes... but im afraid too...
but i am ready if ever my mom ask me this question... coz the aunties in church already know... im just waiting for them to gossip to my mom only...

sien sei ar!!!

today. 2 classes only... then 2 subjects are the same... different tutor. the subject is english.... at first i was expecting something different from secondary school la... dim chi... worst then that, like primary school... teacher gave us the exercise, i finish first... they are still on the first page... i pai seh to go out... then wait wait wait for a little while... then they look at me... finish dy?! so fast?! then i just uh... *smiles*

not to say that i very geng or what la... but the fact is i am la.. hehehe, but what i mean is.. u choose this PR course, and PR u need to be very good in english... since u are not... why take this course??? then they dun even look like they wanna study... so why come to college?

yesterday my relatives came to my house and have dinner, then asking me what am i studying and stuff la... so chat chat chat.. so talk about my classmates... so i just said i seldom talk to them la... coz they all speak mandarin and im a banana... so my aunty said, its ok... they need u more then u need them... hahahahah!!! and i was like true, true...

so sleepy now... waiting for mom to fetch... then got make up class... swt... lazy la... dun feel like going... k thats all...

Sorry....

im sorry, what we discussed just now.. i really cannot go on.. i admit that my love is not that strong... and the truth is, u cannot make it stronger as well, so dun blame it on urself. i also admit that im a bitch.. but im a girl who will always obey my mom... coz i promised my dad... no matter how much i love u. if i find someone who can give my mom a better living next time, i will give you up... coz i also promised my dad i will take really really good care of my mom as well, and i know u know how much my dad means to me...

but i believe in fate, if both of us are really meant for each other, then we will surely be together again... but if we are not... in the future, pls dun ignore me like last time... coz u're being an ass that time.. but im happy to have u in my life dear... * **** ***!!! :P hehe...

back from camp..

im back and im sick... yesterday my muscleache until cannot walk, but got a bit fever... then until at night, my fever gets worst... then as much as i dun like to eat medicine, i ate 2 panadol coz i dun wanna make him worry la..

today have to wake up early, then go college... so many notes and things to do.. i think im barred from exam dy i dun dare to skip any classes now.. so i tahan until my class over... then very dizzy.. after that my mom say my kai yea purposely cook for me and my sis, coz my mom going there to visit, and he thought we would come along too... haha my mom told me

* when my mom reached there*
Kaiyea: where are my 2 darling girls?!
Mom: din come in college
kaiyea: what la... ask them to skip la..
Mom: eh u ar... dun pamper them too much ar..
Kaiyea: your job is to dicipline, mine is to pamper them..
Mom: *faint*
kaiyea: i purposely cook for the girls u never bring them, only u get to enjoy the food... what kind of mother is this...

then my mom ta pao for us.. my kai yea cook dunno what chicken with the dunno what buah keluat,something like that la... my mom said, she never see the fruit b4, and she say this dish very hard to cook.. haha.. im so touched.. then got pork and cuttle fish soup... very nice but very salty... i know i cannot eat.. but because my kai yea purposely cook for me, then i have to eat... now my mom talking to my kai yea... just now getting more and more dizzy, but now ok dy. photos i will upload later until they upload it on the site la.. i also dunno when...