20

just a blink of an eye we're all one year older, and i'll be 20 years old in a few month's time. even thought im not officially 20 yet, but i already can feel change in me, not in physical change la, but mentally, physical change i think is just my looks lor, look more older than i use to be LOL. after form 5 i changed a lot!

im a very reckless person, and im very 'yea man' i think in english is call sassy? though i still am a bit of those, but i really did change, my thinking is much more mature now, things that i couldnt let go, i let go, just like soo jen ruw, i never thought i will ever let you go, and i really did hate you, but now, i dun feel anything for u at all. whether u lie to me about not having another girl or not i also dun care anymore. but one thing i know is, i wont let the same person hurt me twice.

ok la, so to say. im more 'protective' of myself. oh, and i've never been so serious in a group before, though im serious in serving in my previous groups la, but now, im MORE serious. LOL. its a good thing right? i hope my seriousness is in the right motive too. LOL. and i started to think b4 i do things or say things, for those of u who havent seen me scold someone b4, let me tell u, in secondary school, someone bullied me and my best friend. and her sentance always got a few Fucks wan, come on la, we are all secondary school and above right? so don need to say yer and pretend innocent. LOL! then one day i really behtahan ah! then i scolded her, i was form 2 then. she cried. im not boasting, im telling u how bad i am in the past. LOL.

then now, there is one person, that i really wish to slap the person in the face, and scold the fella, but i learn to let the fella go also. so im more mature dy right? hoping the person will change la, and change isnt something overnight, its in the process, same as me, yes, im not completely changed. but i will be, just wait and see! so 20 years old is memorable to me. i will need to remember this, so i post this up. hehe. i wonder what will i feel the next year? and i'll be officially an adult next year!

oh ya, and those ppl who are pushing me to learn driving, not that i dont want, its just that i always fail, and I DID READ OKIE? and my marks are 1 or 2 points from passing, then uncle Edison's class said that, same as driving, maybe it is not yet time for me to drive yet, so thank God that people are still alive. LOL! i think he is right, i can really imagine what will happen if i got a car, not only i go around killing ppl, i also committing suicide also. LOL. i will still try to learn my driving, but if it still dont work, i can assure u that God doesnt want me to drive yet. LOL. so dont push me la.

i like the different me!