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its not that today i siu hei, but throughout sem1 till this sem, u and SC always also tease me banana.
which i dun really mind, coz i know i am. and i also know that both of u sometimes will say things w/o using
your mind to talk, and u will hurt someone unintentionally. and because i know that, all this while i have been so patient.
but this time is too overboard, you all say english cannot express things well, or maybe feelings, is bcoz u both
doesnt understand english. i know my english is not good. so i cannot help much, and for that, im very sorry.

i always will feel left out whenever im with you all, even though i might be laughing and smiling all the time.
but, do you know how angry was i this morning? i can do anything for you all. and i dun even expect
you all to say a thank you. coz i dun mind, bcoz i just think u all are my friends and when my friend
needs my help i will surely help. but yesterday, i stayed up very late to just finish off the script, i checked
it over and over again and make sure there is no error. and i was so tired. SC complain say a lot of things to say and all
i also never mind. but you, you are my best friend you know? of all the five, you are the one that i really
trust and feel comfortable with. i know that i dont know mandarin, and that makes you all hard to
communicate with me.

but do you all also know, english, is ALWAYS the 1st international lauguage that ppl from all over the world
understand and speaks? im not trying to say mandarin is useless, i know both of you LOVE mandarin so much
from first sem till now, have u ever heard me insult ur launguage? have i ever insulted mandarin? then why are
u all doing this to me now? do u know today i was so pissed that i really want to scold u all, but i have to clam myself down
b4 i say anything bad to hear. i wanted to say when SC ask me about some english words, i wanted to say, since
u r so proud of ur mandarin language. then y dun u present in mandarin? for what u need me? im just useless, no matter how much i help all of you
you all also wont be thank you or gratefull that i will always be here for you all.

and why am i still trying to fit in with you all? coz i just dun. i really feel like im wasting my time. and i just dont
feel that i dun have any real friends here at all. i really want to go back in secondary school where my best friend wont treat me
like this. and if u really want to be successful here, u have to have good in english. for a person who cannot even differenciate a
he or a she, has a long way to go. i really wish her good luck. i told my best friend, and she said, are they even really ur friends?
english is the only language im good at, and it is what im proud of, maybe not as much as u, i am a banana. so what?

i know maybe after u reading this u are very angry with me, but i had enough i really regret knowing both of you, and bring you both
to be such good friends who always goes against me. who never appreciates me. if u really mind that im a banana so much, go find another new
friend like ur kind. i dun fit it, and im not the right person. i have never blamed anyone of you. so, there is nothing to forgive.
in anyways, thanks for sending the SMS. but im fine. dun worry.